Saturday, January 30, 2010

Bloggers & Tweeters My Future Wife

My friends of the virtual world. Thank you for letting me pour my heart and soul to you during the past 17 months. I FINALLY FUCKING FOUND HER. The three most important f's a man in my shoes could ever want. She said yes to moving in and I start bringing my stuff over tonight. I love her deeply and she is by far the prettiest woman ever born. Twice in a lifetime I have chosen a mate. First time it lasted 27 years, but this one is forever. I love you Lady M and I will be the best Man on the face of the Earth for you my eternal Queen. I will be good and fair to others and in forefront I will always show my gratitude to God for your gift of love with acts of Nobleness to others. Lady M a year from now You and I will float together down a Church aisle in Rome and we will be joined forever by Mans Laws and in Gods eyes. Goodbye Spain, Goodbye to the sadness of life. I Love you Lady "M" I was born to love you Darling.


Friday, January 29, 2010

Holy F--- Batman!!


Ok tell me I ain't wigging out. Last week I left a message for Lady M on her cell basically I said hi and how are you.Man how could I not say something. See I think I'm in love with her. So When I bought ticket yesterday I didn't know Lady M even remembered my name. Apparently she does as she called me today. When I heard her voice, that sweet little tiny delicious voice crack and turn into sobs. I just died then and there. She means so much to me. Am heading to her place in about an hour. Yea am really nervous yet I feel an inner calm. I think without a doubt she loves me too.

She is so fucking fine man I mean really fine. A friend asked me today if I would get married with her if she said yes. My answer? IN A FUCKING HEARTBEAT MAN!! I know shes the one, as tons of girls go nuts for yours truly when they see me with her. Why? I don't know. Tomorrow am taking her dancing to Skinnys LOL!!  Do I miss Jenny? in a small way I do, but seriously man she needs a younger dude than me. I almost 25 years older than Jenny. She likes drama big-time and of course I understand hell shes only 26 of course she likes drama. I on the other hand like a fine assed smart Dame, hence Lady M.

I can't wait to kiss her soft lips and get lost in her eyes. What a Lass, what a Woman.

Thursday, January 28, 2010

Fuzzy Feelings

Easy to trip when thinking about past relationships. You get those fuzzy feelings, but then you get all steel hearted.Yet its been a blast to spin in a world with gorgeous women. I now look inward and see holes where a life and purpose used to reside. Every step I take forward reminds me of the past, but every breath I exhale warns me of a future alone. I seek the path to knowing the present and owning it. I used to dread loneliness. I never knew what it felt like until this past year. Today a close friend told me that I was there when my kids needed me the most and now that they had grown, was it really that bad not be needed? She was right. I did my duty and though you are a daddy until you die. its time I let them grow up and make my own moves onward.

Today My Aunt lent me a couple grand and I bought a ticket to Italy for a couple weeks at end of March. Am so fucking looking forward to this trip. First time I travel as a non smoker. You do not know Hell until you fly a 13 hour trip from LAX to Rome without a cig!! Now I go as a man that has destroyed his addictions and conquered new secret places in my mind. What Ive learned as a sexually interactive Man (means horny) is women will always be there and basically everywhere. Am going to club in Rome, already got some lined up. Got hotel already. Had a ball doing this big-time. I can't believe I let my ex wife do all this planning, this is freaking fun.  Btw one word k...priceline. Yea a stupid ass like me can never get it just right huh. So I give up everything bad for me right? Yet now I can't even imagine not working from 8am-9pm. I mean operating a restaurant by myself.  Lamo never worked this hard before in my life. But I fucking love it!!! ROFL!!

No lies please?

Lol man will never figure babes man. They lie and think we will take it with a grain of salt. I have no problem with a babe lying as long as she puts out. If she doesn't then why bother even talking? I used to believe a woman when she spoke to me. Lol now I kinda yawn mentally when they spin a lie. Hey baby you want me? Then Doll let your actions speak for themselves not your words. Cause I've learned after 27 years of a 24 hour together marriage. That when a woman speaks Rofl man you bet your ass shes fibbing. I guess so do we huh. Shame nobody can stay true, well I'm going to be so fucking truthful to next babe that lands in my web of love... Like today a nice honey came into restaurant. We've been smiling at each other during the year and yesterday we smiled again as we passed each other on street. I was doing my laundry and had spotted her at laundry mat.
She came into el puesto and wanted a burrito so I made it nice and beefy for her. We exchanged small talk, but I as too tired (9am-9pm)to play game on her. She saw I was tired and did well with her game. Got me interested in her. Shes a petite woman and pretty. Yet shes Latina and I don't want to ever go there again.

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Walking the Path alone

This is the first time in over a year that I'm not dating or making love to a women. I like it. Had a ball last year, literally. Now I want to travel around the planet a few times. I will find her may take some time and lots of self interaction with issues I may not want to face, but I will find her. Lately I've been having a recurring dream. In it I find her and shes so pretty and wonderful. She sings to me from top deck on a cruise ship. Always the same white dress. We always meet, kiss and dance the night away as the moon smiles down on us. Hope dream comes true. I love working more than 12 hours a day, it makes me feel real. Am teaching myself algebra and geometry as I wait for the math class to open up next week. Figured it would be hard, but dam if it aint the easiest thing I've ever seen.

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

What a photo from the past....



Wow man what a difference a year can make. The photo above reminds me, what I looked like, I now weigh 150lbs and have abs that could stop a train. I am living a life most can't even dream of.  Its a chance at a new life. Today the Detective called me regarding my ex wife and said the city attorney was filing charges against Anita. I was like Anita? his answer, he said, she was threatening him and me on phone. LOL!! I was like SEE I TOLD YA THEY WERE NUTS MAN!!!!!!SEE SEE SEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ROFL gawdam chicks man. We truly can't live with them or without. God what a blast you must have seeing us humans..your creations running around trying to find Love. LMAO!!!

I told detective, hey bro let them go. When I filed that report I was fucking pissed those bitches had been staking me out around courthouse. They wanted to see how I would get sent to jail for a year,but they forgot who I used to be and whom I had become. I walked out free as a bird,vindicated and lusting for some massive payback. Didn't have to wait long. Anita called me 20 mins or so after I left Courthouse. Hence the mess they now find themselves in. I don't get this shit man. See when I filed for divorce, my ex and I guess were in shock and complete denial of what divorce meant after a 24/27 years marriage and we acted all friendly toward each other. In fact she offered one night on phone to send me Anita to keep my company.

Inside deep inside I was like EWWWW! don't get me wrong Anita is a pretty young honey, but I've known her as a friend and employee of my ex wife for about 15 years. Yea so much for deep inside, heheh my dick won the debate and I had a Anita delivered to me on a platter. She hung out at my place for about a month.
She did a good job at whatever she was sent here as apparently my ex tried and tried to get me jailed or a longer tern restraining order. I finally got pissed and nailed her ass with a 3 year permanent TRO. Those bad boys ain't easy to get Folks!!

Which leads us to today's post. See what ex wifey had forgotten that I was always the planner the schemer if you will. I have the patience of a cat. Naturally whatever I told Anita under the sheets, as sure as the sun rising tomorrow,I knew she would tell the Ex-wife. LMAO you cant even fucking imagine the head games I played on those witches. How many times have they tried to boil me alive in their cauldron of deceit and futility.
Bah silly women.Behold the Mercy of a true King. My Son Never forget boy I let them go. When your 18, my lawyer will send you papers, hardcopy of what I have been telling you through this blog. I let them go even though to this day they still plan my person harm. Watch my Son how easily I shrug off their ill conceived efforts . We are Men my Prince, we were born to die ,but how many we save and the ones that we show mercy upon. That my future King, that's what marks your Being in Times eyes. I loved your Mom, a long time ago and she loved me as well. How many times will I let these bats from Hell take stabs at me? Hmm, as long as it amuses me. ROFL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My heads like Charlie Brown


Heheh today I took the pre Ged test and did dam fine.. Test in Feb then on to college, goal being eventually Bar Exam. Lol starting over is what I'm about... sigh

Sunday, January 24, 2010

Yea I let her go too.




Yea I let her go too. Bye Jenny you were a freaking blast but I don't play that. With that I walked out of her Apt for the last time. Now I'm totally alone with no honey to call on.
Fade to black with subtitle.."Now the Adventure Truly Begins". :)

a Year and 5 months have passd since I divorced my wife and left my house. Whats Happened since?
  • I now weigh 150 lbs. Used to weigh 304 lbs when I was married.
  • Stopped smoking cigarettes. Used to smoke a pack a day since I was 16 years old.
  • No longer drink Soda Pop. Used to drink about a liter and half a day.
  • Have slept with over 30 women all ages all races. :)
  • Learned to love myself more than my addictions.
  • Stopped the ex wife from further harming me and won a three year permanent restraining order on her.
  • Am a size 29 in Jeans ROFL!! I still can't get over that one man.
  • Fell in love with a honey and lost her, but I got to feel "love" again.


Saturday, January 23, 2010

You want Girls?

Hi Bro you want girls? LMAO man who doesn't, but I'll tell you my tips, see if it helps ya. Am all about scoring honey. First of all forget about BARS! unless you want a alcoholic girlfriend and besides do you really want to screw a drunk babe? LMAO trust me you don't!!!!!!!!! First decide how old do you want her. Rule of thumb for me is, if she has braces on...stay away its a 15-30 year stretch in a federal prison LOL! If she has too much grey in hair, stay away man she probably knows you're Mom and the laughter from Mom when she finds out..well lets put it this way DO NOT GO THERE MAN!!!!

I prefer clubs like Avalon in Hollywood or Skinny's in San Fernando Valley. What race of a girl? Thats probably the most important factor for me at least. I was married for a thousand years to a Hispanic girl from Mexico city. I stay away from all LATINAS. I don't care what boobs, ass or face they have on man. I JUST STAY AWAY. I know who they are and more importantly I know who they'll become later. So stay away from Race of girls that has given you trouble in the past. Go for a girl you never tried before or or a snowballs chance in Hell with.  I flirt with them all except you know who LOL!!

Ok hit the club and for Christ sakes man don't get drunk there. LMAO I did and dude you end up with a totally different kind of babe when sober. I like to warms on floor with honeys on the rebound from a past relationship. Easy to spot they travel in groups and usally shes the one looking at the dance floor with a sad, but determined look. In mind I always say, "up periscope" think of a imaginary coordinate and yell in my brain 'fire Torpedo One"! By the way BTW<----LOL. I use this line on rebounded honeys and has never failed me. You decide the moment but make sure you use it well cause the next step is "fun town". Line is, "Hey Baby don't hate..Participate."

If you want her for a friend try and I do mean try,  not sleep with her that same night. I know, but dude it really won't work out long term at least it hasn't for me. Not saying you won't get laid, but what are you into? Getting laid or scoring a future regular sexy time and a cool girlfriend or a one nighter? Who knows maybe you can  do both. I just aint a Brad Pitt kinda of a guy so I gotta plan my shit lol.

As far as online dating its the easiest way to score honeys. You can not miss on a dating site. At least I've been lucky and every girl I pretty much wanted online.  I got to kiss and love a little. Yet not one has worked out long-term. So go figure that one out. Yet online dating has had a huge ass effect on my heart and later heartaches.Yet be warned Brother, you will find a girl online and yes you will make love to her as well. The danger you run is you can and like I did will fall in love with her too. I did and to this minute when I hear the song she sang to me as I held her in my kitchen. I get twangs of this and that. To this very fucking day am still in love with her. Fuck man if she were to call me right now I would pick it up and finally take her for the ride I promised her. In way I guess write this so she might read it, but I know better, we all move on. Its awesome though to look at pictures of women and literally pick the one you like and later kiss in real life. Wow man I LOVE IT ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Friday, January 22, 2010

whole Japanese thang

Wow man in two years I'll be 50 fucking years old..LMAO!! The thing is I sure as hell don't feel old and don't even know what fifty will feel like.Thursday night Jenny asked me to dance for her. I was like hell yeah, I love dancing for chicks. Its my thing man. So I bust some moves and Jenny was like, "dude you have da bomb moves". I acted all casual about it,but inside I was jumping up and down. See Jenny's in her "late 20's" and well shes pretty fine from head to toe. Shes all Japanese and yea its true what they say about them. SHES A FREAK IN BED. OMFG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Its like I died and went to Sex Heaven!  Look, I once was in my late twenties too and no fucking way was sex this good. Am ready to ride with her for awhile she make me laugh a lot and is really fun to be with. She looks cool in my benz and I like the whole Japanese thang :)

Help Haiti by Tweeting!!

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Girls will fight 4 U :)


 ROFL no my girl aint that young as honeys above, but 27 is young enough...trust me. ^_-.

Yea if that shit isn't da bomb wtf is man. Yea I was looking at rain in front of el puesto thinking bout this and that. Had just finished with a PD Dective regarding my ex wife. Seems they are filing charges against her for harassing and stalking me. I didn't know that aside from her violating the tro and calling me a few times since my court date when I beat her charges against me. The cops had staked her out and had followed her and Anita to my Apt. LMAO the two idiots fell for "my turn on the lights, radio and let my enemies think I'm home routine. When the Dick asked me to come down and sign statement, I laughed so hard man. He was like WTF man you baling or what? I was like Brother no way am I sending my ex wife to jail.

He knew why and tried to tell me that my kids would get over it. I stood firm even though my entire body screamed, "send" the bitch to jail. I acted all bored and told him nah my kids would hate me. He tried to play it off saying the city attorney didn't need me and could prosecute without me. I said yea but why? since the main witness, me... didn't want to testify. My ex wife's defense lawyer would shred that big boy of  hole in the case fast. S.O.K as kids say. I just wanted to shake her ass to the floor and am sure I did lmao. Its over and the fever and thirst for vengeance has passed man.

Last night Jenny fucked me so hard, she sent me back to 1961 and I probably had a pre-birth experience. lmao!! She won't let me go no matter how "hard" I try. I guess I do want her to stay. I love it when she talks to me in bed in Japanese. Makes me feel I'm in a naughty porny Asian film. Shes been a good friend and the only sweetheart that either gave a dam about me or maybe shes the only one I gave a chance at my heart. Who knows but I sure feel great. I love sex,  love it so much and all the time, but like Moses said with a Yiddish accent as he shrugged his mighty shoulders, "Who knew"..

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Heading to SF :)

Got my Benz!!!!!!!!!!!! Will post car pics when I get back from work tonight.  Its an oldie, but shes all mine  :)The big news is I got an offer to work in San Fransisco by a law firm. They want me to head up their War Discovery Unit. At first I was like blow me until I saw Salary. Yea I sold out my principles and now am a worker like everybody else. Lol kinda cool with it tho. "Be Kracking it with fo's around bay area. Shoot some funz on deck and this Thor like sculptured fo be shredding some slopes soon." Rolf not bad for an old man, huh. I used to be the picture of conservatism and all that. Man am 48 and ready to fly again.  I no longer wish to have another soar with me. See this time instead of anticipating that my next girlfriend is going to fuck up or let her agenda and ulterior motives surface uncontrolled by rhyme or reason. I intend to be true to myself first and hence to the relationship in whole. Am looking forward to San Fransisco in the coming weeks. I very much fell in love with SF last time I was there There's a certain "calm" that exist in SF that I've never encountered in Europe. I look forward to the intellectual intensity but if truth be known, I look forward to courting a Legendary Bay Area Beauty!
----Peace----
girl with
pink mohawk - draya (san francisco)

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Shes legal :)

I love my Benz :) Tomorrow its finally registered.

Monday, January 18, 2010

Wow I love my week.

So much to do this week. Hope Roy nails his job interview at A. Hope all have a great week ^_- . I finally let go of my last girlfriend. Puts on Bill Bixby face and walks away.

Sunday, January 17, 2010

Reflections

OK got rid of all relationships that were bad and not going anywhere. Now as I look deeply inward, I really don't like what is looking back. Am a good decent man but I've got issues, I guess like everybody else. So what to do bout them.. As I look at the new body that stares back from mirror.  I look back at my eyes and see a faraway look. Many throw themselves to help, many believe in me yet I have this death wish, to self destruct.

I of course wish not to take anybody with me, but am not I doing it every time I "fall in love"? I see now how I glamorize and rationalize my way bout town. Bad form indeed Sir!  I'm a lucky dude if you look at my life in general and no need to write here to remind. My finest hours on Earth where when I conceived my kids with ex wife. I have beaten her at own game and yes I high five myself on these battles, but its time to move on as the ex-wife and I lost the war of love... long time ago.

I have invested so much effort into into getting laid that I lost myself in the pursuit of self gratification. The prettier the girl the bigger the payoff was landing in bed with her. Tonight as I looked deep at mirror I could see faces of all the women this year that I had touched but for whatever reason hadn't worked out. As I looked at them.  I began to see it as that movie when a terminator cyborg falls into a vat of molten metal and you see all the the faces he had assumed after murdering them.

Sure you can say hey man don't trip they were adults and knew what they where getting into. Yes true,but I'm a gentlemen and I should have put an innocents womans heart ahead of mine,. if not in the very least at equal footing as my ardent feelings.

After chilling with Vinny his girlfriend and Son. I left and about a block away and well, yea  I got pulled over by cops...sigh. Expired tags. They impounded car and basically told me pay in 24 hrs 150. else pay more in storage fees and get a bunch of fix it citations.  I was lucky to even get a choice. As I stand there watching my car get towed away and cops driving away and may God bless them too. I get a call from Vincents girlfriend.
She tells me I left my jacket behind well I tell her what happened. Few minutes later Vinny picked me up and gave me his pssat or whatever Volkswagen car.

When I got home I sat there at the edge of bed looking at myself in mirror. I had asked Vinny when he lent me his car keys, why? He had just lent me his laptop last week as my tower finally got toasted. I was like hey man you really don't know me so why would you and your people help me? Hell man I ain't Persian and shit. He replied cause right at this very second you can't even see how rich you can be and how much you will make us in the short term. He added you beat 2 consecutive people of California vs your self adsorbed self pitying ass , you just actually had your car impounded, but the cops didn't give you not even a ticket?

Told me to go home and think about it for a while and what I really wanted do with my life. Well for one I banish this heartbreak from my life. Look, dwell no longer for reassurances of past comforting hates or angers, nor look at unborn dreams in the future. I will focus only on the present, but more importantly I will make sure that whatever benefits me does same for those around me.

Yet as I would love to take the credit for my victory in court as Vincet put it. I t really was Sandys idea when we plossed through the Forrest. It was her idea that I get restraining order against my ex-wife for harassing me every other day on phone. It was that permanent Restraining order that saved my ass last week in Court. It was what the public defender used to wreck havoc on city attorneys case. Well it was quite a moment,but yet I knew that nothing would happen. Even Jenny laughed that night before arraignment in bed. Tickled me said I was some term in Japanese, meaning I always escape, may stumble and scrape my knees, but escape nevertheless.

I guess the story of my purpose would end there at some sort of self realization and go on and prosper. Yet christ sake man there has to be more than just getting more money and having stuff? Its not some selfish middle age crisis and about me. I ask myself how the FUCK WILL I HELP OTHERS as yea no shit man help myself too. Hell I ain't a Saint.

Friday, January 15, 2010

ugh 101 temp

ugh some ugly asses flu or cold bug has invaded me body.. lol benefit of being married was having somebody fret over you. One year later and am still alone, hmm but I feel something wonderful coming my way though.  
a dumb or fever induced Epiphany......nah I better not, sounds as stupid as all hell lmao man.      

Ok God send me to Rome am ready Sir!


 Well last week it finally dawned me or I just fucking grew up finally. I was driving around and ity occurred to me if women lie like men then Jesus I better check myself for STDS and HIV, even though I am really picky about women I make love to. I went for the test. Well I got results today. Lol Clean as a new born bean rofl. NEGATIVE all across the board. Mom was happy and finally relived lmao man. MOMS always think the worst. So after finishing with "M", I figured why not start all over again. So I dropped all my girls last night and am totally alone.

When I was a fetus I saw a movie with Burt Lancaster. He I guess was going through a middle age crisis and I guess decided to go swimming across America through peoples pools. Hardly remember much ,but it struck me. I really don't have much to stay in USA for anymore. Today I started to look for Law Firms in Italy that may need a "tuff" guy like me for this and that. Hell why not live in Europe for a while. Figure if I leave in March hell why come back? First Spain if all goes well then onto Italy and a glorious future I hope LOL!

Almost forgot to mention DO NOT BRING IN YOUR RACIST ASS INTO MY FUCKING RESTAURANT OK? Yesterday maybe cause I just had finished my relationship with Lady "M" but I went nuclear on some asshole at El Puesto last night. He's always a difficult prick always asking for extra this or that but yesterday he started in with that the President would help Haitians cause he was black and leave us Americans high and dry.

So I made his burrito with everything he asked for. All the time he kept at it saying this racist shit and that against blacks. When I was done I stalled for a couple minutes and waited for next Bro to walk in. When he did I whistled for him to walk over and the dude walked over. I asked him Hey man want a free burrito and 10 bucks. The guy was like fuck yea, gave it to him and the shitfaced white bitch customer was like wtf Man!! that was my burrito you just gave away. I said yup and don't forget I gave the man 10 bucks. Then I told the little bitch he had 20 seconds to get out or I would call the cops or just follow him home and cut his heart out and shove it up his ass.

He left and he understands hes never ever to come back again. Yea I know it should have been handled right, but I figured he hated black folk so much hell he could spare some hate and have a real reason to hate spics like me. Heheh am all about being the right asshole to the wrong people.<--Hugs himself and blows a kiss at mirrors reflection, lol someone has to.

Thursday, January 14, 2010

Wish I could lie about it.

Yet I can't, hell no shame in have feelings even if its for the wrong women. Yea here it is 2010 and yea I still think about "T" Girl especially when I'm between girlfriends. Dam I guess I really did fall in love with her. Hell man who couldn't. Well regarding Lady "M" am pretty sure were done. I'll always think of M with such affection and admiration. What a classy Dame. Well back to Skinny's lounge and plenty of fish.com. This time am sticking with only "youngsters" (25-35) lmao yea call me a pedo...bite me lmao. Younger honeys are fun and carefree about life. Figure I should lighten up after all whats the rush? Do I really need to have a woman by my side. Beginning to dawn on me that I don't. Why not just go for an all inclusive gathering of best friends in my case they are going to be all Women...hehehe Today as Roy and I checked out the ribs that were cruising around town I thought to myself. This kid and I could own Rome in a matter of hours. I figure I'll hopefully be in Spain in March and if what I've been working on happens I should be able to hang on there untill Roy hits Rome in June. Heheh am crossing my fingers.So we decided to plan a Greece and Italy trip this Summer. Kind of a Zeus and Apollo chill with Venus and Dianna on Mount Olympus deal.

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

Wow lots happened.

Ok lets go first with the District Attorney and Judge k? ROFL MAN!! My ex-wife tried to stick me in county jail for a year....awwww what a peach huh? LMAO!!!!!!!!!!! Of all the mother fuckers on the planet she knows more than anybody you can't hurt me, cause you want to. Only I can injure myself, nobody else. The thing is I had a choice to pay 3700.00 bucks to hire my old criminal attorney or I could just take my chances and hope that the Public defender could rip my ex wife.

Well today I fell  in love with a woman's brain. The Public Defender tore a new asshole into the District Attorney as she rightly should have. Not only did I get the 5k bench warrant recalled but also got the entire case dismissed, but get this OMG am so fucking laughing as I write this. ROFL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Sit down folks and behold how God protects me with his Sacred breath.

So I leave the courthouse a free and vindicated man. Kind of used to it by now, but I'm not used to what a horrible deadly prick I have turned into. Ok back to after the court hearing: So have driven away I say about 3 blocks away from the courthouse when I get the "CALL".  I tingle as I remember every juicy moment and the nuclear aftermath fallout of deadly consequences raining down on those malcontents involved.

To my readers who have followed my adventures this year. I bet your like OMG NO WAY!! DON'T TELL ME IT WAS ANITA?? ROFL..WAY...ROFL OMG LMAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Yea it was Anita. She begins with your such a lucky fucker and that I wont make it though the night. I'll be dead by Midnight and she.. goes on to Say that my ex-wife is right next to her listing to the convo in fact the ex wife piped in with a quick fuck you and die statement at me. I let this hate-fest against me go on, oh heck I guess for 5 minutes? When they paused for air I asked gently you done now Anita?  She was quiet and said yea, I said, you "just got my ex-wife in mad trouble". She laughed and said they knew I didn't know how to record on a pearl blackberry. They are right I don't. She also called me more names and cackled that they star 67ed when they called me so I could never prove they had called from my ex wife's house. 

 I spoke softly, but so loving and sweetly. I said and I FUCKING QUOTE! I said. "Anita I believe the number that shows up here on my screen is---------. She gasped , paused for about an eternity, seemned maybe a little more and started to scream on the phone that she was sorry for calling. Apparently in their haste to laugh at me, she had forgotten to dial it as an unknown number. Actually a common mistake, but sadly a tragic one if inflicted on a monster like me. I hung up and no longer answered her calls as they came in as "UNKNOWN NUMBER"

The watch commander of PD next to courthouse was hmm lets say LIVID? that I had been staked out, yet another violation of my permanent restraining order against my ex wife as also was the phone call by Anita. It was Anita stalking me in my alley in October that earned my ex wife a 3 year restraining order against her. In short by the end of the day. Reports and investigation for volition of a Court Order were filed in two different police stations and parallel investigations by detectives in both stations began to seek out their prey.   

It use to be I would never have turned on a woman. Lol now well its different me. After all women seek equality? RIGHT?????????? If you do seek this mythical equality, then babe learn this lesson now and probably the only lesson you'll ever need when fighting a Man.
NEVER BRING A KNIFE TO A GUNFIGHT.

Have you ever seen a movie where it seemed hopeless and the hero looked like he or she had lost, until the end of movie or story? Well I always wondered if I could pull off a intense ending and save the day or in this case my own slender, but ever so so so sexy ass. Before I go on, just fucking have to say this. I hit 150lbs today and so what you ask? You ever hear of the 310 lb ugly duckling that grew up into a 150lb Swan? Hi people guess what I'm a swan. At least 3 girls unabashedly hit on me today and I came home with 4 cell numbers? Maybe its the weight loss or maybe its just that I'm in a better sexier place than I was a year ago.


Yet it feels great to be chased by gorgeous women. Two I mean drop dead gorgeous babes hmm how do I put this gracefully...hmmm, almost tore my clothes off in front of my poor Mom and Jimmy at the restaurant this evening. Lmao at  Trilica?who yelled at my Mom, "your Son is sick" and tried to drag me back into the storage room. Alex the store clerk saved my ass and told the girls that the place could be closed for lewd behavior. ROFL, they just looked at him and then pulled us both into storage room. My Mom told the girls she was going to throw buckets of cold water on us if they didn't let go of her sick Son, Lol Mom thought the girls meant I had the flu...rofl sweet Mom I adore her so.. The honeys finally gave up and surrendered to reason and decorum, lmao man.


Been a long day and on top of all this good stuff I have a runny nose and maybe the sniffles lol.
To the reader the scribblings of a middle aged man may mean nothing, but to me in the years to come. This blog will be a delicious thing to read and truly enjoy.


Tuesday, January 12, 2010

Well Excuse Me!!



Well false alarm.Thing about false alarms they can be set off by very real triggers. I could sit here and write how bummed I am, but to tell ya the truth am very much elated and finally guilt free. Lady M will make a lucky man one day very happy. Shame it aint going to be me. Such is the game of Love. Si la vie est cadeau.

Am guilt free as a  knight.  I did my best to save this Princess from a life of solitude, but I realized I wasn't the right warrior or perhaps she liked her Realm that way. As I left M's apt and headed to mine, you can imagine my bumness, until I got a call from Jenny asking me where I was and how was I. Told her about my dismal failure to move in with M, added I was heading to beach to walk around a bit.  She recommended I head to my place instead and make love to her for the rest of the day. I thought about it all 4 seconds and yelled HELL YEA!!

What have I learned about women in 13 months after my divorce of 27 years?  Only two lessons.
1). Hang with Women that say yes and that do everything to hold you madly close to they're Hearts.

2).  Each Woman when in a group, is no different than diamonds piled up. Yet each one is flawless and priceless.




Monday, January 11, 2010

I Love you Lady "M"


Gawdam!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! finding love IS SO FREAKING PAINFUL, BUT WHAT A HUGE ASS Joy WHEN YOU FIND IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! come shake it, shake it shake it. Lady M is my dream come true. I see her in everything I do and just can't let her go.  I stand before any Man and throw down my sword. I dare all creatures of this Earth, a death match for her Precious hand. I have been in training all my life for this kind of a Woman. I will not only walk down the Golden Path with this Angel by my side, but together we will touch peoples lives for the best of us all. She brings out the Good in me :)

Today:

I think we could be happy together.  We both have loving, giving impulses towards each other and not only do I love  you, but I RESPECT and BELIEVE in you.  These are important qualities for a woman like me to have for a man.

But what made me saddest was that I thought I had lost my best friend.  I cry to think of it.

Will call you as soon as I arrive home tonight.

Love to you,
"M"

WTF!! She loves me?

Dear Blog. She emailed me and wrote that she loves me. I'm in total shock as I adore her. I can't help thinking of Lady"M".. I have had the worst time ever. The heartbreak has been hard and complete. Countless thoughts race through your mind when you look down on a woman of a lifetime as  you make love to her. When I look down at M.  I just melt she so dam fucking fine. She is that girl, the one that was in every Gary Grant and John Wayne movie. I want her by my side again. This has to be for any other vision is unacceptable.

Friday, January 8, 2010

Wow it hurts.

Today I got some mail at my apt it was from Lady "M" she had mailed me back an apron and apt key. I opened the package praying to find some shred of something that I could work with and give my pride some reason, any reason to hide once more. Nay it was a request to let her know why her glove box was jammed. It wasn't.  I left her a voice mail simply saying, I had locked it to prevent any entry into it.  Felt her glove-box contents was safer that way. I broke it off with Jenny last-night. The reason was simple enough. Like I told Jenny, since I couldn't have Lady "M" . I just didn't feel like being with anybody for awhile. Jenny had a nuclear cow to put it lightly lol. Never heard a young Lady cuss so many new words, some in Japanese. She demanded to know why I had fallen in love with M, what was the fucking reason as she put it.

The reason was easy, M is the nicest human being i've ever known. I think I did a huge favor for her by leaving her and she may never know it. See I truly loved her like no other women before her or I doubt after. I choke up just thinking of her in her apt on her PC, without me by her side tripping over her dsl line on floor. When she would kiss me back fuck me man if I didn't think I had died and gone to heaven. That Beauty WAS THE MOST magical women that God ever made.  Today Vince brought bye a sony vario laptop told me to use it until I get a desktop again.

Its cool to have friends like Vince that help out when your in a small jam. That guy and I had a hot 200mph benz just a month or so ago and wow we hit the cruise blvds  and had a killer time on freeway
. I hit 160 and felt a tinge of fear and slowed down lmao Vincent was snoring away. He has a 5 year old son who runs him ragged I guess lol. The little man-cub is named Omar and he really is a little angel. Reminds me of my boy. I really began to admire and respect Vincent when I met his girlfriend. She already me knew me from Malibu surfer point,off to right of pier.

I had seen her surf and shes seen me, diffrence is shes dam good and smiles alot when she hits a crest. I on the other hand have become an expert at digging sand and rocks out of my ass.  Always figured she was hondojonesy's woman, one of lifeguards there. Didn't know she belonged to Vincent, until I met them for Lunch. I was floored. I literally told her Babe how the hell could you love this dude? She hugged him and said, "she didn't know, but was wild about him". Vince looked at me and said,"fix yourself bro and you can have one just like her too". Yea if it only was that easy huh. I am heartbroken over M like BIGTIME, yet its a weird heartbreak. Today as I read her letter in package. I thought back to movies when they show a Vampire feeling pain as he gets stabbed or shot and yet smiles grimly and heals himself and does his or her or I guess "its" thing.

I felt the same today. I felt a huge sense of loss over M, but I smiled as I lifted weights and felt feelings and thoughts that just a while ago were alien to me.

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

Where I am now.


Love or the lack of it is terrifying and horribly scary. I can't even imagine a life without a special woman by my side. Vince a good friend of mine says woman are born to be ruled over. Lol man on this hes kinda right and very much wrong. Others say bah on women uniqueness and use them for other things than true friendship. Me? I Enjoy sex maybe more than the next guy, but then again I was married for 27 years on a 24 hour train-wreck of a schedule. So yea its like I'm having sex for the first time.... lmao man.

I broke it off with Lady M and yea it hurts, but even though I loved her probably more than any other girl. I just don't feel like jumping on the downtrodden train and heading off to self pity mountain anymore.I walked away from a bad marriage full of holes and bleeding a loveless liquid when once it gushed a red more scarlet than the Suns heart.

I don't say this as a remembrance of "her" (the ex wife) but at wonder of the love and devotion that I 'm capable of. To me being in love is how I thrive and deal with life.  Its like you send a vibe when your single and free. Today Jenny called me out of the blue and kinda laughed at my current love trouble with lady M, she said I should forget this finding love crap and just live it like a cool MOF that I portend to be.

Shes right I guess, my plans to head off to Spain this march are still on track. I hit 154lbs today had been 150 in October, but thanksgiving struck and I was Busy with Lady M and Jenny eating it up, gained 4-8 lbs and didn't work out until today. Will I survive the bullfight? lmao I doubt it, but to be without my kids well why the fuck care about it anymore.

After a bus hitting me and dragging me for a block or two about 6 years now, in London Piccadilly square.. If the Bus couldn't kill me why would a cheap assed Bull do better. Last year before I left my house and family and filed for divorce. I showed my Son the first terminator movie and he stayed quiet when the truck in movie runs over the terminator, He looked at me and said, "dad it looked worse in London, cause it was you under that bus Dad". We both  hugged and cried a little. See he was down the block looking at his old man walked down to subway shop to get a sandwich and he saw the whole thing. This is so fucking painful to retell. Imagine what my Son must of thought as he saw me go under the tour bus and get pulled out from underneath that fucking bus.

Dear Readers, When I got pulled out I came out smiling with nothing more than scraped knees and some scratches on palms, lol yea some 2 degree burns on face from under bus engine I guess. Remember yelling at my Son on curb not to cry, cause we Americans don't die so easily. He stopped crying and walked over and sat next to me, we high fived  and, hugged as they slapped my ass to a stretcher and sped me off to St Johns. Lol what a mother fucker I am lmao. Nothing really kills me. As a kid I was hit a by a hit and run driver over 40 mph thrown to other side of street, got up and walked away. As a Teenager I fell off the Malibu dam. As an adult have survived a six car pile up, being caught in a office fire, walked out with ex wife literally through flames others died. About 3 other car accidents all of them always the other dumb bastards fault. Couple gunshots and a few stabbings. The Tour bus thingy and so far that's it..laff..night aint over yet. Seriously "Thank you God for whatever Purpose I serve Thee I do it so happily and gratefully". I love you Robby your my life and if you read this than most likely the fucking Bull got me and I died and well kid never feel guilty.  You are the Best Son a man could ever dream of.Its ok boy you know me maybe am still alive and you finally got hold of my twitter lmao and have been reading my posts all this time lmao man.

Well even though Lady "M" Said yes to living together I could tell she wasn't into it as the look of fear spread across her face as each hour passed lol. So I did what I am becoming good at. I just looked at and kissed her goodbye and bounced back to my Apt.I now walk away from impossible or rather situations that require too much work for the return on such investing of oneself.

Shes really without a doubt probably one of the most wondrous women I've ever met and I would have married her in a nano second if she had let me. Who knows maybe she knew better. She says I write in a non sequential way lol aint first time I've been told that. Hell man who said I could write I sure as hell didn't hell I didn't even graduate high school, but I've been of service to the most brilliant legal minds of our time lol that and a beer bottle gets ya the grand prize huh? lmao man.

Well here we go again back on the quest for the best women I can find :) Sometimes I feel like Bill Bixby the actor who played the Hulk on tv show years ago. When the show would end it would show the Hulk as a normal man (Bill Bixby)just walking away on a lonely road. As I write this I can't help remembering a waitress I knew years ago at one my parents restaurants. She would dance with a beer bottle on her head. Thats how Jenny learned cause I told her about Rosa. I know chicks don't get why a young lady with a mini skirt balancing a full beer bottle on her wouldn't be sexy? Well apparently its a GUY THANG!!!!!!! LMAO!!

All the time I was seeing Lady M, well Jenny wouldn't let me go. She knew about M and yet she kept at me. When I wasn't with M, I was with Jenny. Now as I move out next week Jenny's says she'll move in with me after I get my place.Well to tell truth I really dont want to have a girlfriend move in with me anymore HEHEH ESPECIALLY A 25 YEAR OLD. Am super proud when we go out though, after
all am an oldie at 48 years old. Lmao I dig the looks I get from other guys my age rofl. Most of them smile and wink at me. Yet Jenny's an American as much Japanese that she may be it still is dating an American chick.

To tell ya the truth I've had it up to here with all this bullshit women spew regarding their equality and that crap. YOU ARE NOT FUCKING EQUAL TO MEN! Get that through your pretty heads. Cause if you were every firefighter, every solider every cop, every human  being charged with saving another humans life.  If WOMEN were equal than every occupation above would be filled by a woman and not 99% Men. Silly Women we gave you all the power over Mankind and you fight us over a "LABEL"? You have more power than any Man ever born, even Jesus Christ was born from a  WOMAN.  SO IF YOU HAVE A PROBLEM WITH THE EQUALITY OF MEN AND WOMEN THEN DOLL RAISE US DIFFERENTLY from birth

I make no excuses or apologies for who I am or How I turned out. Yea, I'm an asshole no surprise or shock k.My way protected my family and in the end it served me well and left them prosperous.  Thought about long and hard.  I really don't see why I should lock myself into a one on one relationship. Way I see it during my worst financial times Ive underwent last year 2009. I was lucky enough that I had women driving to my humble apt for fun and well intended affection. It was like I was cursed or hell maybe it was me but no matter what I did I couldn't fucking make any money. There would be times that I would do 14 hour days and I kid your ass not the money would be sucked away instantly by the most insane or non essential reason. I was like WTF!!!!!!!

I look forward to Europe Lady "M" was my last try at a fellow Americans Heart.  Now I go Euro Hotties for a bit. Been practicing my Italian off and on using that Rosetta stone method.  Think am ready to score the most impossible but dreamiest of all women. The Eternal Italian Woman.No other place on Earth and I've been around, no other place known to man.  Do men in groups actually stop what their doing in mid track and freeze just freeze. Why?  To just stare at a gorgeous Italian woman dressed like a goddess strolling down from the Vatican.

About 2 years ago. I along with every other guy, stopped and just stared at this beauty wow. Everything matched on her from the binding of her heels to her earrings. I can't recall what I had for lunch on Monday, but I remember her and way she moved,like it was 5 minutes ago.

Now that I regain my footing, emotionally and finally financially I can only wonder how rocking fun its gonna be to score Honeys all over the world now. I leave in March to Spain then hopefully to Rome.
Life will never be the same.

Jan 3-6 2010

Hurts a little, but its 2010!
The Revolving Door.
Yea it hurts to break up with a girlfriend, even hurts more to completely let go. Its not only that I thought she was the One, but its cause I let the other 3 sweethearts go to. I guess the other 3 were the ones too. Right now I think its best to take a love break and just fool around or play the field or whatever folks call it. Maybe its me and I'm the one that doesn't want to be tied down? Yet I yearn for the warmth and honesty that a true love can bring to ones life..sigh. I didn't find her and can't even say I came "close" as that word doesn't exist in love.

Some girls don't mind sharing you, but most mind a whole lot. So yea am taking a break and no longer chasing women I think I could be in love with or maybe could love. Am a little exhausted from the last one I chased, caught and had to release as her love for me wasn't full grown yet.. Figure for now, I'll lean against a fluffy cloud and let them float by to me.

Ok Folks its 2010 lets own this YEAR!!
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Sunday, January 3, 2010
I Popped the Question
I Popped the Question lol the question being did she want to live together. Yea she said yes, but I knew inside she was just being nice and really didn't mean it. Yet I being the dude that I am acted all happy and naturally gave her a couple hours later "the get out of the commitment without being awkward about it Card". Surprisingly she didn't use it that night but rather waited the next day. Again I think she is very sweet and pretty, but I just am not into a every weekend for only 48 hours relationship. Since "T" girl I haven't felt this way about a Honey, but what I learned from having my heart broken last time, is this and I pass this knowledge on freely to any fellow skirt chaser facing same or kind of same situation. 1). First of all don't fall for the old bachelor advice of not falling in love with a woman. Its impossible not to love them deeply and get lost in their musk and magic. So whats a Man on the prowl to do? After all men search for a mate for many reasons, mine being I need one by my side. Its how I roll. Nevertheless no Woman will ever take me again, to that fathomless pit of unholy loves lost.

So how do you cope without having your heart broken to literally a zillion pieces? The cure can sometimes be worse than the affliction, but its whats saving me now and allowing me to write this without suffering its cruel conclusion. This is the most important bit of advice but so hard to survive. Date as many women all the while you see that "special one". If she (the special one) doesn't workout well yea, its going to hurt, but it won't destroy you. Trust me you will still feel heartache or at least I do as I would have married this "One" in a heartbeat. Yes there will be some heartache, but follow my advice and the pain will be much less as opposed to the insanity of self destruction of loving just one sweetheart!, but like any survivor of a love lost forever death camp. I whisper in the corners of the darkest of nights..
never again...

DECEMBER 15-30TH

POSTS FOR DECEMBER.

Wednesday, December 30, 2009


Heheh lil tuff..yea

Love is the toughest gig you'll ever work. You really never will know if that person across from you is right or just a temp thang. Yet does it matter? Sometimes the feelings you fear are the ones that you need to guide you and sure the leap of faith can dash you to bits, but it also can let you fly. Yea its scary to commit and to stay true to a special person. Its not the being faithful part that's difficult and its not for the sex. At least for me, its the fact that your telling that person through your actions that they have become the most important Woman on Earth. I did that trip for almost 30 years and to tell ya the truth Men and Women fucking LIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!. Its not like I'm brand new at this but you get used to believing a wife for so long you forget how to think for yourself. So yea when a special lady tells me she loves me or that I love her, well it makes you pause later as you drive in traffic.

Its really so fucking dangerously easy to casually say "I love you". Bet more people have died from a broken Hearts than gunshots and yet we can't help ourselves. We can shut out that future pain by no longer loving I guess, but what does that hand you in exchange? I may sound a bit melancholy, hell maybe and why wouldn't I be. It's my nature to doubt what can not be seen or swallowed. Probably the holidays after all its a new man that emerges from this long slumber. As I spread my leathery wings and look down at my old hands I flashback to to these same hands holding a soul-mate decades ago..... as she scampered on rocks at the beach.  To thoughts of holding my newborn kids as the Doctor placed their brand new lives in my hands, to the same hands holding my Dads hand years later as he died, to the same hands recently issuing a divorce and closing the door behind me after countless years of being a Husband and 21 years or actually as it now seems really, just minutes of being a Dad.

These hands built a Kingdom once and took care of a family for a long long time. Lady M are you the love of a Life? Lol kid what the fuck do I know. I will tell you one gawdam thing for certain Doll. I love you as I only know how and it means the world to hold you and kiss you deeply. That's the only weapon of reason I holster as we march forward to meet 2010. I was born in 1961. I Existed and continue to live and have visited upon me the timeless wondrous curse we Men call Love. Darling take my Hand.



Tuesday, December 29, 2009


Baggage has been checked.

When I think of my Lady "M" I get all squishy inside and feel like hmmm lol..wow? I wouldn't trade her smiles away for all the tea in China. Shes like kids say "da'bomb". From her laugh which is directly from her Mom to her way of looking like a shy eyed Doe tip-toeing through a thicket of birch trees. I can see her right now and dam I get all freaked and proud of myself, lmao shes so FUCKING HOT I DIG THIS DAME!!!!!!! ROFL!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can see her gorgeous eyes blinking in slow motion right at me and that smile!!  She stole my heart and I fess not even a look of where my Soul used to chill, as am sure it fled and moved in with Hers. I intend to rip apart 2010 and rename it after Lady "M's" favorite stuffed monkey. The baggage has been checked at the desk of Eternal Intensity and from here on, I travel guilt free with my life guided by her Love.

Shake It lyrics
Songwriters: Cyrus, Trace; Healy, Timothy; Improgo, Anthony; Musso, Mason;Let's drop! Yeah, come on
Shake, shake

I'll take you home if you don't leave me at the front door
Your body's cold but girl we're getting so warm
And I was thinking of ways that I could get inside
Tonight you're falling in love, let me go now
This feeling's tearing me up, here we go now

Now if she does it like this, will you do it like that?
Now if she touches like this, will you touch her right back?
Now if she moves like this, will you move her like that?
Come on, shake shake, shake shake, a-shake it

Shake shake, shake shake, a-shake it
Shake shake, shake shake, a-shake it
Shake shake, shake shake, a-shake it
Shake shake, shake shake, a-shake it

Your lips tremble but your eyes are in a straight stare
We're on the bed but your clothes are laying right there
And I was thinking of places that I could hide
Tonight you're falling in love, let me go now
This feeling's tearing me up, here we go now

Now if she does it like this, will you do it like that?
Now if she touches like this, will you touch her right back?
Now if she moves like this, will you move her like that?
Come on, shake shake, shake shake, a-shake it

Shake shake, shake shake, a-shake it
Shake shake, shake shake, a-shake it
Shake shake, shake shake, a-shake it
Shake shake, shake shake, a-shake it

I saw you dancing and I couldn't get you off my mind
I could tell that you could tell that I was taking my time
But I was thinking of ways to get you staying the night
Your body's shaking, tell me off so I can turn off the lights

Now if she does it like this, will you do it like that?
Now if she touches like this, will you touch her right back?
Now if she moves like this, will you move her like that?
Come on, shake shake, shake shake, a-shake it

Shake shake, shake shake, a-shake it
Shake shake, shake shake, a-shake it
Shake shake, shake shake, a-shake it
Shake shake, shake shake, a-shake it

Shake shake, shake shake, a-shake it
Shake shake, shake shake, a-shake it
Shake shake, shake shake, a-shake it
Shake shake, shake shake, a-shake it

Monday, December 28, 2009


Show "Lost"= Trippy

Just started to watch this tv show called Lost. I began it with season 2 Lady "M" told me where season one was ...hehe. Basically its like a "twilight zone tv show, Gilligans island never get off premise all the while people drop in weekly.  Now throw in, this location is out to get you,  like burnt offering movie all in one tv show."  Baby likes it and well I do to :) You can watch season 1 AND 2 on HULU.

The BESTEST part of the show is watching my "M's" expressions as she watches it. Tonight she told me she misses touching me. <--Raises mouse to his Lady and clicks her a kiss 
My favorite Show














Saturday, December 26, 2009


Nothing in life is certain.

What it means to finally find her, but to tell ya the truth I know that nothing in life is certain. Yet I rather have my heart broken again than live my life in doubt, paranoia and not in love. I need to love a woman that's how I am. Perhaps if I had a normal 27 year and 24 hours together marriage, maybe I could live single until I die. Yet I didn't have a "normal" Marriage. As I head off into an uncertain future I look at and hold her hand to my lips. I love this woman, I adore her deeply and why? who the fuck knows why. I just do. See real love or the kind that lasts for a couple decades at least for me. Sometimes you love that person so much your heart actually hurts out of happiness and love. Baby 2010 is our year and nothing will stop me from winning your heart and hand in marriage. I intend to relentlessly pursue you long after I catch ya sweetheart.

Wednesday, December 23, 2009


2009 DIE K! JUST DIE BITCH!

What a fucking YEAR huh? I buried a 27 year marriage, lost my Son to a vindictive ex-wife and I permanently restrained her ass for the next (3) three years from talking,calling or even looking the fuck at me. Went from a 300 lb pig to a sexy hot 155 lb mother fucker. Yea I got way meaner, but a little wiser and more laid back. Hosted small orgies in my humble apartment and became something of a Dancing legend in my hood. I fear no man and up to now no fuck can kick my ass. Dated over 20 women and cared for them all to a degree. In March my vows to Peter are over and I'm a full on Papal Knight with my name visible for all to witness at the Vatican. Have all my hair and still am a virile Stallion.  Heheh says I, LOL.

Yet am 48 heading rapidly into my "golden years". I no longer take shit from any women, but it no longer matters.  As I fell deeply in love with a woman in Hollywood. The more I dated other women the more I would miss her, until one night my mind melted in a dark recess in my apartment. My feelings for her came to a head and I said her name out loud in my mind. The way she floats when she walks and the stuff she says rofl man. I'm so taken by her. Smart is she? lol sounded like Yoda did I LMAO. Yea shes incredibly brilliant. Times she asks me stuff like, "maybe I think I lover her but not really in love with her" and other heady stuff like that. At first I felt insulted by her questions or concerns. Then it occurred I had met probably one the smartest women I would ever meet. I know myself if anybody knows me its ..me. Yet I marvel at Lady "M" and always steal unabashed stares at at her when I can. She dazzles me and when shes looks right at me and her eyes literally smile. Wow man I feel my chest swell with pride and gratitude for being alive.

See here is the thing and only guys and maybe girls in my age and certain divorce demographic may understand. I was married for literally forever and 24 hours together to boot. You may think I make too much of being with a person for 27 years and 24 hours together. Well Dear reader I haven't met too many of my kind. So I became a some what of an expert in this woman (ex-wife) and since she was mainstream like many women. What I learned after almost 30 years of marriage served me well this year in bagging and tagging trophy beauties. Its like my whole life as a married man has been in training for Lady "M". When we hang and chill we spend a lot of time in bed but its also about talking and laughing like real lovers do. She curls up against my body and looks like a kitten next to me as she purrs and dreams. When I bend down and kiss her lightly on her cheek she smiles and I swoon at her hotness. So yea I lost a lot this year and much pain was forever seared into my consciousness, but I gained a shot at a wondrous and love drenched future. Give me the strength Dear God to be all that I can be for my sweet Lady "M".

Get Blogging.

Be it Blogger or Typepad. Make 2010 a Blogging Year.
 Lady "M" lol Baby yea, "Ya ROCK MY WORLD" <3
SHAKE IT by Metro Station



Shake It lyrics
Songwriters: Cyrus, Trace; Healy, Timothy; Improgo, Anthony; Musso, Mason;Let's drop! Yeah, come on
Shake, shake

I'll take you home if you don't leave me at the front door
Your body's cold but girl we're getting so warm
And I was thinking of ways that I could get inside
Tonight you're falling in love, let me go now
This feeling's tearing me up, here we go now

Now if she does it like this, will you do it like that?
Now if she touches like this, will you touch her right back?
Now if she moves like this, will you move her like that?
Come on, shake shake, shake shake, a-shake it

Shake shake, shake shake, a-shake it
Shake shake, shake shake, a-shake it
Shake shake, shake shake, a-shake it
Shake shake, shake shake, a-shake it

Your lips tremble but your eyes are in a straight stare
We're on the bed but your clothes are laying right there
And I was thinking of places that I could hide
Tonight you're falling in love, let me go now
This feeling's tearing me up, here we go now

Now if she does it like this, will you do it like that?
Now if she touches like this, will you touch her right back?
Now if she moves like this, will you move her like that?
Come on, shake shake, shake shake, a-shake it

Shake shake, shake shake, a-shake it
Shake shake, shake shake, a-shake it
Shake shake, shake shake, a-shake it
Shake shake, shake shake, a-shake it

I saw you dancing and I couldn't get you off my mind
I could tell that you could tell that I was taking my time
But I was thinking of ways to get you staying the night
Your body's shaking, tell me off so I can turn off the lights

Now if she does it like this, will you do it like that?
Now if she touches like this, will you touch her right back?
Now if she moves like this, will you move her like that?
Come on, shake shake, shake shake, a-shake it

Shake shake, shake shake, a-shake it
Shake shake, shake shake, a-shake it
Shake shake, shake shake, a-shake it
Shake shake, shake shake, a-shake it

Shake shake, shake shake, a-shake it
Shake shake, shake shake, a-shake it
Shake shake, shake shake, a-shake it
Shake shake, shake shake, a-shake it

Monday, December 21, 2009


Heheh yea she LOVES ME! <3


Ok you mof's want to hear bout game? YEA!!!!!!!!!!! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I've dated the prettiest, hottest women in the known "Universe", but fucker I've never dated a GODDESS before. I almost and I mean by that___much, missed the 10 times made love to her mark. From Friday night until Sunday morning we spent it happily climbing new sexual heights. From drowning in each others eyes to stabbing our never before realized dreams with pointed daggers dripping freshly churned orgasms. Amongst this ecstasy, hearts and souls conspired and mercifully released my unjustly imprisoned sexual madness. Finally loose, it crashed through and destroyed years of carefully built Dams of Repression. Thus, Her and I, hand in hand, and toes giggling as they entangled themselves in each others blushing awareness became One for a unforgettable and life altering moment..  I tightened my hold on Lady "M"s Soul. and we broke free, escaping from our own painfully forged chains of past loves never materialized. So yea, we melted into each others Being this weekend.

Yes, I fell upon on her taunt, bronzed body and consumed her or like Lady "M" says, and I quote,." tearing it up".  Let this post be a confession to performing unconstrained naughty, sexy Darth Vader type acts on this willing but wide eyed beauty. Did "stuff", haven't done or even imagined in years. Dig it man, Shawntys been a professional single women for years and one of those "college" Dames. Masters degree and all that.... bleh I'm just a street guy but apparently quite a guy to have a Honey like her fall for me, hehehe...<---high 5's himself LOL!!.

Yea sex is goddamn everything in a relationship and if your partner says it aint important. LMAO then you poor fuck you're doing it wrong ROFL!!!!!!!! The really funny thing is life and all its son of bitches are snapping at my heels,but man when you finish making love to a woman of a lifetime all the the while lost her in eyes as you let yourself go inside her. Then those mean old wolves chasing ya become nothing more then helpless kittens loudly purring on your six. Lady "M" I truly love you and everything about you, in you and of you.

So then why am I so kind of fucking happy in this post? Hmm lets see?????????? <--taps finger on forehead and wonders why am I am so deliriously happy? oh yea (SIGHS)  I remember now lmao silly me.. SEE SHE GAVE ME HER FUCKING KEY TO HER APT OK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I GAVE HER MINE TOO!!

Sunday, December 20, 2009


Sigh.....lol

Success!  I'm so relieved I really do exist.

I gently nudge my horse and smile at the clouds that grace my way. How fortunate I've been to loved and been "loved" back by such elegant and sensual women. 

Friday, December 18, 2009


Can you find love lost... Twice?


What a trip it is to think you may be in love let alone dare even dream it.  Everyday I fall deeper over my head with you Lady "M". I rush to meet you and I think about you and chuckle as I remember your stuff. I know I've been a handful for you, especially as I emerge from this divorce of 27 years. Darling every human being going through a divorce should be as lucky as I have been, to have discovered a person like you. Everyday M and every second of said day I feel profound changes going on through me. Its like I was trying to tell you the other day. Its like my as you call it "Emotional IQ" was asleep and now has awaken, much like when a persons foot falls asleep and when it wakes up feels, like millions of pinpricks. Years ago baby I saw a movie with Michael Cain and I believe Jay Leno first. I mean the flicks old!! Cybill Sheppard and one the smothers bros were in it too. One the main characters was a billionaire who when you spoke to him or tried to sell him an idea as Michael Caine. This man would walk over doing things in various rooms of his castle with all in tow talking to him. In one room for example he would plan some chess moves in others place some billiards. Baby that's how I saw you last night as you went on with all the daily routines that make up your day. It hit me that sometimes a Man can turn a relationship as treasured as it started, into a repetitive routine,Yesterday waking up with your during a weekday was mad fun! Taking off to work and you later doing yours was a blast. I dig your brilliance and how you shake it baby!

Wednesday, December 16, 2009


Don't it just make your Day?



I know a girl that makes me smile even more than the video above. Am thinking about her right now and am beaming. Never knew a woman could be so sweet and nice to be with. Lady M what a blast I have with you, every conversation a learning experience. I steal glances of you when you aren't looking.  I fantasize and think about you 24/7 and when I am above you with your body, soul tight in my arms. I gaze deeply into those never-ending eyes and your eyelashes tickle my mind. I think without a doubt no more prettier woman has ever drawn a misty breath than you Darling.

Forever lyrics
Songwriters: Brown, Christopher M; Jones, Jamal Fincher; Merritt, Andre Darrell; Seals, Brian Kennedy;1, 2, 3, 4!

Hey! Hey!
Forever
Hey! Hey!
Forever

It?s you and me
Moving at the speed of light into eternity
Tonight is the night
To join me in the middle of ecstasy

Feel the melody and the rhythm of the music
Around you, around you

I?ma take you there, I?ma take you there
So don?t be scared, I?m right here, ready?
We can go anywhere, go anywhere
But first, it?s your chance, take my hand, come with me

It?s like I waited my whole life for this one night
It?s gon' be me, you and the dance floor
?Cause we only got one night
Double your pleasure, double your fun

And dance forever-ever-ever
Forever-ever-ever
Forever-ever-ever
Forever
(Forever)

Ever-ever-ever
Forever-ever-ever
Forever-ever-ever
Forever on the dance floor

Feels like were on another level
Feels like our love?s intertwined
We can be two rebels
Breaking the rules, me and you, you and I

All you gotta do is watch me
Look what I can do with my feet
Baby, feel the beat inside

I?m driving, you could take the front seat
Just need you to trust me, oh oh oh
It?s like now

It?s like I waited my whole life for this one night
It?s gon' be me, you and the dance floor
?Cause we only got one night
Double your pleasure, double your fun

And dance forever-ever-ever
Forever-ever-ever
Forever-ever-ever
Forever
(Forever)

Forever-ever-ever
Forever-ever-ever
Forever-ever-ever
Forever on the dance floor

It?s a long way down, we so high off the ground
Sending for an angel to bring me your heart
Girl, where did you come from? Got me so undone
Gaze in your eyes got me saying

What a beautiful lady, no ifs, ands or maybes
I?m releasing my heart and it?s feeling amazing
There's no one else that matters, you love me
And I won?t let you fall girl, let you fall girl

I won?t let you fall, let you fall, let you fall
Yeah yeah, yeah yeah

It?s like I waited my whole life for this one night
It?s gon' be me you and the dance floor
?Cause we only got one night
Double your pleasure, double your fun

And dance forever-ever-ever
Forever-ever-ever
Forever-ever-ever
Forever
(Forever)

Forever-ever-ever
Forever-ever-ever
Forever-ever-ever
Forever on the dance floor

Oh, oh, oh-oh-oh-oh-oh, oh yeah
Forever-ever-ever-ever
Forever-ever oh

Tuesday, December 15, 2009


Why I killed the "other" Blog :)



 I love you Lady "M" with all my heart!!!!!!!!! Every-time I see ya I go crazy and when you danced with me in living room I gained 20 years back. Though sometimes Doll you get the same expression as Sigourney Weaver in video above as she stands at the face of "chompy crushie thingies," when I jokingly tell ya that I intend to smother you with love.