Saturday, October 31, 2009

I feel my Heart swell with Possibilities

Lady "M" just gave me her home address..<---unfurls leathery wings, spreads them and flaps away toward her castle.

Well, it would've been, could've been worse than you would ever know.
Oh, the dashboard melted, but we still have the radio.

Oh, it should've been, could've been worse than you would ever know.
Well, you told me about nowhere well it sounds like someplace I'd like to go.

Oh, it could've been, should've been worse than you would ever know.
Well, the windshield was broken but I love the fresh air you know.
(The dashboard melted but we still have the radio)

Oh, it would've been, could've been worse than you would ever know, oh!
(The dashboard melted but we still have the radio)
Oh, we talked about nothing which was more than I wanted you to know-oh-oh-oh-oh.
Now here we go!

Oh! It would've been, could've been worse than it had even gone
Well, the car was on blocks, but I was already where I want.
(It was impossible, we ran it good, we ran it good)

Why should we ever even ever really even get to know?
(It was impossible, we ran it good, we ran it good)
Oh if the world don't like us it'll shake us just like we were a co-oh-oh-oh-old.
Now here we go!

Well we scheme and we scheme but we always blow it
We've yet to crash, but we still might as well tow it
Standing at a light switch to each east and west horizon,
Every dawn you're surprising,
and in the evening one's consoling
Saying "See it wasn't quite as bad as"
Well, it would've been, could've been worse than you would ever know.

I was patiently erasing and recording the wrong episodes
After you had proved my point wrong,
It wasn't like I'd let it go, oh-oh-oh. Oh-oh-oh.
I just wanted to catch the last laugh of this show.

Yeah, it would've been, could've been worse than you would ever know.
Oh, the dashboard melted, but we still have the radio.
(The dashboard melted, but we ran it good, we ran it good)

Hard-wired to conceive, so much we'd have to stow it
Even needs have needs, tiny giants made of tinier giants.
Don't wear eyelids so I don't miss the last laugh of this show.
(The dashboard melted but we still have the radio)

Oh, we could've been, should've been worse than you would ever know.
(The dashboard melted but we still have the radio)
Well, you told me about nowhere well it sounds like someplace I'd like to go-oh-oh-oh-oh.
Now here we go!

Well we scheme and we scheme but we always blow it
We've yet to crash, but we still might as well tow it
Standing at a light switch to each east and west horizon,
Every dawn you're surprising,
and in the evening one's consoling
Saying "See it wasn't quite as bad as"

Oh it would've been, could've been worse than you would ever know.

I'm 23 and your 48 right?

Yea am ready man. Broke up with Jenny in the sweetest way, if that's possible. I guess it was last night.. Shes cool and I like her style. We're gonna be good Friends and I think we will be really that, we shared alot and a few hair raising adventures, not to mention we fucking own a dance floor when we fly. Now as far as Lady "M" is concerned, am looking really forward to tomorrow night when I sleep over. Last girls place I slept over was in April. Since then I've turned down every invite, sometimes for good reasons, mostly though cause I just didn't want to be close to a woman in such a meaningful way again.

Last nights email campaign for my puesto took off like mad today. Got orders like how much would it cost for a client to provide him with 150 breakfast burritos a day. Hehe needless to say I was madly jazzed over this as well as other orders that came in. In other words my dry spell, writers block, or just the plain "I divorced her and my family blues" is over. Ladies when someone tells you that Men don't feel heartache or pain from the depths of his soul. Tell that person that he or she sucks as a human and doesn't know a gawddam thing..k. Because we Men do feel immense pain more than any human should have to endure.

Its like I'm the 6 million dollar man, I became stronger, faster and yea even smarter. Today for the second time in a row I've turned down Eden for a date. Shes a 23 year old Israeli fine sick honey. I met her at a painting show in Thousand oaks with my pal Vincent last Friday. I gave her my biz card,Vince had said she wouldn't call, as Israelis don't go out with Catholics. She called a couple times and asked me over for coffee at a Starbucks. Rofl man I was kinda in a werewolfish mood, so I bit her gently, but I bit her and said, "Darling I don't do coffee dates you want to go out, we go right to my bed". She was a little shocked enough to say omg I don't even know you. Told her then baby when your ready for me call me again and said bye,hung up.

If last year you had told me that in one year, I would be 150 lbs, muscly and fine as fuck. I would have said why you fucking with me man? Now add that I would be scamming a 23 year old hottie and then turning her down when she wanted a roll in the hay? I would reached over and taken your car keys away from you and said, "Bro your too drunk or high to even drive, sit the fuck down man". Today Eden called and said all sexy and husky like, "ok lets meet your way". Wow man I was looking at mirror while shaving as I took her call. Told her to take down a number,she did. Then told her I couldn't make it as I had a previous date that I just had to keep.

She got a little pissed and said,"hey guy I'm 23 and your 48 right?? I looked at myself in mirror and smiled all happy at my reflection. All I said was call the number I gave you Doll, that's a 20 year old honey I dated for a couple weeks, if you still want to see me, leave a nice sexy voice mail and we dance Tuesday, after some cake,coffee at my place. Just heard her voicemail, am still blushing and like hiding under my computer desk JFC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yea dates on fo' Tues...hehehe yea a year is a long assed eternity for some fuckers lmao!!!!!!!!

Thursday, October 29, 2009

So she told me this

Update: Its like 9 am and I woke up all fucking happy about Lady "M"... Rofl I think I like her alot oh wow man!!!!!!!!!! I haven't FELT like this in fucking years OMFG I THINK I'M FALLING FOR HER..... ROFL is it possible can it be possible????????????? am so excited bout spending the weekend at her place, lmao man. I think its here rofl. YUP I CAN FEEL MY STOMACH ITS ALL NERVOUS!!!!!!!!! I have probably slept with more women in this year than all the times I had sex with my ex wife during 30 years so I know it aint my possible future gf's sex that has me all jacked up.. <---(puts hand on beating heart, smiles and gasps, "yea its her that has me like this".!!!!!!!!!
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Today Lady "M" told me that no man has ever spent a night at her apt in Hollywood. Shes lived there 8 years. I was shocked a bit to hear that. Keep in mind that no matter how many times a woman may draw a love picture for a man, he may never get it, let alone understand. This is one of those moments. I know now its a big thing for her for me to sleep over. Its beginning to hit me that this girl likes me a lot. She comes off all pro like. Never married no kids, so shes hardcore single. Like when Mister Bro told me tonight, takes mass game skills to get a hottie like "M" into my bed let alone a sleep over the weekend invite. My answer to that is well, the only quality is takes to land a honey like her is, and be ready bud its the hardest thing a Man can do... it's don't be scared to be yourself. Oh wait did I mention that Lady "M" has a 2004 Harley? ROFL man when she pulled up last Sunday on that "Hog" instead of her SUV, I flipped out man!!

Jenny is beginning to feel somethings wrong with us. Shes a great young lady and dam sexy too. Yet she has a fatal flaw that has doomed our relationship. The thing is I don't get it? Hell she danced for me on a street in LA just a month ago, right there in broad daylight in front of people, she just danced for and to me. Last couple dates she hasn't been to affectionate toward me. Not only in public, but more importantly in private. I'm a kisser meaning, I like to kiss the girl I'm with a lot. If the girl doesn't like it, no problem as we won't be long together long for her to mind it much. Way I feel about this issue is, hey your not into me as much as I'm into you? Then sorry Doll its over. Why beat a dead horse man. If the love and instant magic isn't there, well it ain't gonna grow over time. Love is like the fairytale, Jack and the Beanstalk. Those magic beans will sprout immediately if the magic is just right and the giant beanstalk you'll climb up and onto will be a adventure to behold.

Girls Got Rhythm Lyrics
Artist(Band):AC/DC

I've been around the world
I've seen a million girls
Ain't one of them got
What my lady she's got
She steals the spotlight
Knocks me off my feet
She's enough to start a landslide
Just a walkin' down the street
Wearing dresses so tight
And looking dynamite
Enough to blow me out
No doubt about it can't live without it
CHORUS:
The girl's got rhythm
The girl's got rhythm
She's got the backseat rhythm
The girl's got rhythm
She's like a lethal brand
Too much for any man
She gives me first degree
She really satisfies me
Love me till I'm legless
Aching and sore
Enough to stop a freight train
Or start the Third World War
You know I'm losin' sleep
I'm in too deep[But i'm in too deep]
And my body needs love [Like a body needs blood]
No doubt about it can't live without it
CHORUS
You know she moves like sin
And when she lets me in
It's like liquid love
No doubt about it can't live without it
CHORUS
You know she really got the rhythm
She's got the backseat rhythm
Rock 'n' roll rhythm
The girl's got rhythm

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Hmm am vexed.

Yea a friend told me I should stick with girls like around 40 not older or younger. I was taken back as my bro knows me pretty well. Although like he said he 's always been with older girls. his first wife was older by 7 years. Its like almost less pressure to be with an older dame. They are so skilled at loving you and stoking your ego or whatever it is that makes you feel so special with them. She calls me up and literally purrs when she hears me talk. Shes so polite and understanding. Wow man this is easy getting so dam easy to fall for her. Today I jumped and mentally yelled when she called me after waking up. Never mattered before, but today I cracked a grin as I answered the cell. She likes to practice her French and German on me for 30 minutes a day. Of course I don't have a fucking clue on what shes saying to me, but it sounds madly sexy.

Yea it owns.

Heheh this morning around 2 am Lady "M" informed me that I would be spending the weekend at her apt in Hollywood.

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Theres a reason why they are Ex's

My pal Vincent told me other day this gem of wisdom, he said.. "theres a reason why they are our ex's now". He's right you can never go back with or to a ex- so and so in your life. Wow man that shit could have helped me months ago. Well that's all for tonight am locked up in thought over the women in my life. I have a few girl friends, that to tell you the truth. I don't have the guts to cut loose. I like "Lady "M" a fucking lot,but just to think that I could end up with a broken heart again..scares the living crap out of me. I noticed that since I stopped drinking, I no longer am flooded with women. I guess a good thing or bad thing depending on your sexual drive. I moved from the sexual side to the fun side. I really love dancing with a honey at a club. It just hit me man, just now as I stared at screen. I no longer will fall in love again.. The innocence of naked love is gone. A freedom for some and a curse for others. What will it be for me? lmao who knows. I have loved and been loved and now as I stare over the edge of this cliff man calls loneliness, all I can think and wonder is, where does "she" live and breathe?. Something wonderful comes my way soon. :()

Tnxs to 1,300th Follower.


Tnxs to My 1,300th Twitter Follower.

CariAWall


Monday, October 26, 2009

Lady "M"Won..

Darling none has ever touched my soul like you have. Your sex is awesome, your style bewitching, your heart now lays contently in my hands of steel and there it will lay until the end of time my Queen. I have found a woman I can now settle down with and retool my life with a haste that becomes me.

Well Dearest little blog, my little friend in a internet world that even though I was present in the delivery room when the net was born, am now too old to comprehend it.. I thank you deeply for your connection to this "woman".
Its Time to be Great Again :)

Sunday, October 25, 2009

Wow how am I doing it.

We couldn't make it to concert, didn't find tickets. Right now Lady "M" is on her way over and I dropped off Jenny like an hour ago at her place. Last night Jenny danced so hotly at mango tango that it almost got dicey with couple of other dudes. Jenny is hot I mean really fine and mad hot. What a horrible thing it is to have a scarred and broken heart. I am falling for both girls and I know by little remarks they have made that no way they are ever gonna go for a threesome. How to choose? don't know but they are doing their damnedest to win my black heart over.

Saturday, October 24, 2009

Yea...sick...mad dope


Update: I feel like the dude in movie "the fly" as he keeps a journal of his transformation from decent nice guy to a monster (in my case a womanizing sex addict). I can't help myself, its so fucking easy now to hit up on the first meeting its like I'm living the life of 100's of stories in penthouse. When you read that crap as a young buck your like yea "Girl goes to buy shoes and right!! sleeps with shoe salesman in stockroom". You think...hmm,,lies? Well try this on I go into a some Armenian restaurant to buy a couple pounds of lamb chops for Vincent and the waitress goes flipping gaga over me and so did I over her too lmao. Gave her my card told her come to my food stand. She was grabbing me by the shoulder the cook was fucking pissed and changed me for the rice an extra 2 bucks. Am sure she was his sister. The whole time I waited for food to be cooked she stood right next to me talking,bating her eyes at me and just letting me know next to stripping that I was hers. I made sure she knew I accepted. She just hung with me 3:15 pm wow man. Its freaking great to be desired like this by hot looking babes. Tonight Jenny and I are dancing with other swinging couples at a place behind Grumman's Chinese theater.

(Am Seeing & Involved with 2 women right now, Japanese and an a Black Woman. It is not like a silly movie where dude runs all over the place frantically trying to schedule the time. Actually the USA and Europe are what I call places, you can legally have a harem without changing religion. It's easy if you live alone, you just schedule times for each special honey. In my Dating Paradise I keep it down to a couple of favorites beauties that I call and court on and all the sweet weekly surprises like the waitress above are just that..unless lol.. Have learned that many women do not and I repeat do not want to be tied down be it me or anybody else. I can only enjoy the ride on their journey for self awareness and discovery.

This weekend am spending it with Jenny and On Sunday heading to a concert of Lilia Downs with Lady "M", hey whatever she likes is ok with me. She makes love like the wind. Jenny says she would love another girl in the mix and I already am checking on how to make that happen. I would love Lady "M" to feel same and I would bring them both together. Haven't asked her, but I know I could talk her into trying it out. It would so own that both my girl friends would do that for me and for each others sensuality:)




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Love-love-love
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The touch of your hand
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Your vertical stick
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When your baby is sick
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And you know that I need you

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Caught in a bad romance

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Want your bad romance

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Work it
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And I want your revenge
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I don’t wanna be friends

Said I want your love
And I want your revenge
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I don’t wanna be friends

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Caught in a bad romance

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I want your loving
All your love is revenge
You and me could write a bad romance

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Caught in a bad romance

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Rah-rah-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

Friday, October 23, 2009

Lady "M"..yea I like ya 2...hehe

Yea Baby I like ya loads too lol. The email you sent was deep and incredibly moving. I can not believe, I have made that kind of an impression on you. Maybe because your older you can see in me what I can not at this moment. I don't know what it is about you Darling. I swell with the greatest pride when you hold onto my arm so tightly. How you get breathless when we kiss and the way you sigh when we trip the lights up baby. Your a Lady with a capital L Doll.

Thursday, October 22, 2009

The Insanity has passed..finally

Today Jenny's called me on her day off to ask me some stuff. Mostly to tell me we weren't going to have sex this weekend and just hangout instead. Her reason was that every-time we are together we spend it mostly in bed humping like bunnies and we should just hangout this Saturday and Sunday, but not her sleeping over. Wow man just wow. Guess shes mad about this little assholery, I pulled on Sunday. See since Ive been taking Juice plus see add below. I've been like 24/7 erection man. At first it was like omfg awww yeah!!!!!!!! Then the weeks went on and well I became a sex machine. Couldn't get enough sex, in fact I still can't.

Look am 48 and even when I was in my 20-30's its not like I was Mr. 4 times in a day and everyday or anything like that.. maybe 3 times in a day, once in a great while and certainly not daily. Well, now am like 6-9 times a day and yea I crave it everyday. So weekends with Jenny has been about screwing her to the floor for hours and hours.

She has a ball, but its never enough for me now. On Sunday I had woken her up around 8am to do the "slapity-slap" like Neanderthals. Considering she enjoyed it, I was taken back when after a few torn ones she said no to any more until next time. This was after lunch. I was literally floored. I got dressed was all quiet and kissed her forehead, said "hangout here Doll make yourself at home and I'll see you later".

She was like WTF Dude where you going? Told her straight up, "look baby your da bomb and all that, but sorry I want to fuck my nite away and Sunday too". If your into it then get in bed if not am heading to Lady M's place. As I was backing out she came running out in my bathrobe..heheh flashed me and walked back into my place. Yea weekend was a blast :). Now today she pulled that hangout crap? Look sorry, but If I wanted a girl to hangout with I would have one.

I want a woman to have sex with as much as we both want, good times, grins, warmth, deep and honest affection, but not a long term marriage or anything like that. I will not or ever will trust another Human, other than "moi" and even then, I'll frisk myself. Women are splendid and part of my existence, as much as the air I breathe. Yet its way too late for me to ever understand or forgive a entire Gender. Lol sorry ladies, but your deadlier liars than us guys..

Hence I enjoy the life. Every Woman Ive been with has been such a great time. So much that I can only look forward with the greatest of eagerness to the next honey I hunt down. Will she be the one that makes me see life all fuzzy and shinny again? Cause Love does exist as I tasted it for decades it was a wondrous fruit.

Now, I feel new body, new life, new freedoms. I thirst to make "real" love to a woman for hours, for days and everyday as much as we could wrap ourselves around each others feelings and wants, I mean totally consume our bodies, taking turns almost waiting in line to make each other arch our backs. As we tried to touch the stars above our minds, but I want to be entirely, breathlessly, (it hurts to even look at her inside those eyes)...Deeply in Love.
That's
what the fuck I'm looking for.

I am the f--cking One!!!

I DID IT!!!!!!!!!!! Am about to revolutionize an industry..again. Was to beginning to doubt who I used to be let alone wondering out-loud if I could become who I want to be. TODAY I FUCKING DID IT. I STRUCK SO GAWDAM HARD INTO THE VERY MEAT AND POTATO OF THE FUCKING GAME..... BRAND NEW ACCOUNT OFF MY "EMAIL". OMG am on my way to pick it up.. "T" Girl the Calvary is on its way to rescue you darling. Am meeting with Sid today..kid. I know I'll never have you again by my side darling,but I'll always feel so much for you on so many levels. I am finally vindicated in front of my family and more importantly myself. Pat something from Lucent technologies when it was under ATT told me I was a visionary, I remember laughing and telling her yea I see a vision of my car being booted for parking tickets soon. rofllll!!!!!!!!! am so proud of myself so goddamn proud. Get ready Industry, the War has begun and I just hit your ass madly with a massive preemptive strike.. surrender now and maybe I let some of you survive.

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

I no longer fall in love.

Well Vincent heres my blog LOL MAN!!!!!!! I NO LONGER ALLOW COMMENTS MAN. PAST GF'S AND OTHERS WRITE MEAN STUFF!!. lmao I deserve it though.. Would like to thank you for that compliment tonight Bro. I really like the way you gamed that babe. Even though you said a babe is always going to flirt back with guys in a 120k car lol man it still was masterful how you made her throw kisses at us. Yet when you said I was the master gamer, as I had honeys coming to me all the time, and me without a car or much bucks at that. I thought to myself about my past life. To tell ya the truth Bro I love what I'm going through man. Never been this poor before or let alone drive a jacked up Toyota,yet theres a certain liberation from hitting financial bottom. I left my kids with everything and that's more than some others. Girls I've been seeing know about my present morass and well I thought they would be aghast and nah. They even liked me more. Guess these girls, being nice ladies in every way....like a guy without bad habits. Don't drink, smoke, gamble, do drugs or have unsafe sex.Like I told ya its easy to kick a bad habit and perhaps that's my gift from heaven.

Mister Bro I can give up any bad habit, just like that. I think I gave up on the worst habit of them all. I no longer fall in love. Now before you shake that balding mane of yours ROFL...get it man? how can it be a balding mane? lmao man. Yea I know.. I know lmao. When Lady M left my Apt this morning, I knew I wasn't in love..at least yet. I no longer know what to expect and my confidence in mutual love has been destroyed. I no longer trust any woman or believe her for that matter. We both have our motives sometimes known and even unknown to each other on why we are attracted to each other.

Am I Immune to Love?

Hmm, maybe!! She just left and wow what a night. We made love and yea we FUCKED TOO!! Rofl am so gawd-am changed now. What a difference a year can make. Nope ain't in love with her or at least not yet. She could tip the balance in her favor, if she goes dancing with me at skinny's this weekend. Maybe I no longer can fall in love with anybody. Yea, well if that's the case than so be it. I have loved twice in a lifetime and maybe more than any mans entitled to. To Ex-wife and "T" Girl, thanks for the experience and I'll always remember the good times. Oh did I mention am a waist size 29 now? ROFL AWWW YEA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Monday, October 19, 2009

Girls are mad Trippy!


Today at Macy's I bought SIZE 29 Jeans straight cut and they fit perfectly, even though I still weigh 157. The weight lifting routines I've been hitting were designed to lower my waist, while building abs and upper muscles..heheh it worked. When I divorced my cheating fat assed wife last year on Oct 08. I weighed 290 and waist was 48... Ex-wife still is around 200 plus. Check it out.. bout a month ago we faced off at court hearing and I noticed she had done Lipo suction around her waist or I guess stomach. Keep in mind we were 24/7 for 27 years, until last October, so yea I know exactly every inch of her. Well, apparently she didn't or hasn't gotten around to removing the three extra neck folds (chins) shes still holding onto.
Yea thinner rocks :)

This had to be one of the funnest weekends I've ever had. I have never known so much fun with girls in all my life. I danced with Jenny all weekend at home and at a few clubs. Yet tonight I spend a second time at my apt with "Da' Girl" (babe above...lol). To all loves lost and never found who may one day read this entry. Baby it was fun while it lasted and thank you from the bottom of my smile to the curling of my eyelashes as we tripped the switches of love Doll. Having said that, let my new life begin. I dig you Lady "M" and yea every night we speak, I go a little nuts for ya baby. Rofl we make each other bust up for hours and well, I think you and I know where this is going sweet-thing. Baby your curvy body rocks my sex starved soul and the things you think and dare to whisper in my ear, LMAO MAN!!!!!!!!!.

You have had a life altering effect on me Queen-Girl and I truly owe you for the business ventures that I've put in motion. Well it work out? lol, who knows? like the old proverb says, "Fall down 7 times, get up 8".


Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Sandy am Sorry I love you Girl.


ILL ALWAYS THINK OF YOU AS THE PRETTIEST MOST PROFOUND WOMAN EVER DARLING I WOULD HAVE DIED FOR YOU AND YOURS FOREVEA I LOVE YOU SANDRA TAKE ME BACK PLEASE FOR BOTH OUR SAKES TAKE ME BACK DARLING!!!!!!!


To: Sandra
Subject: Re: GOLD DIGGER



wow baby your such a mean beauty but ok if you were to come back I would write an apology on the sky with a skywriter just cause I'm broke right now doesn't mean anything. Come on Sandy lossen the heart a bit don't be 55 year old, man. Ok I did bad who hasn't baby? come on forgive me please Sandy if you had ever done me wrong i would have forgiven you too. Cant you see how hung up I'm on you? So who cares what you told your family about me I dont care its about what we do with our lives from now on. Sandy please just think about it ok? If you were another guy then tell me and I promise you'll never hear from me again Doll. Please let me know if you want to consider my love for you again.

On Wed, Oct 14, 2009 at 3:50 PM, Sandra wrote:

APOLOGIZE ON YOU BLOG – YOU BULL SHITTER



From: Hardcore Dude
Sent: Wednesday, October 14, 2009 3:49 PM
To: Sandra
Subject: Re: GOLD DIGGER



oops had forgotten about that heheh sorry kid. Hey Sandy do you love me at all? Casue IF you do I'm in as much as in love with you as the first day. All girls will never come close to you darling. Please Sandy consider taking me back. It doesn't have to be like it used to be I have a changed a little in some ways and in others I got better. as far as finances what did you think would happen when you walked out on me. For everything Ive ever did to you am so sorry Honey!!!!!!!!!

On Wed, Oct 14, 2009 at 2:07 PM, Sandra wrote:

Baby your mine soon.

We "talk" every night since we met Sunday, yea am way into her. I dig the stuff she says and way she moans over me and my things. Told her tonight I want to come over to her apt, now that shes seen mine. She just giggled lol man. Even tonight after I drove Jenny back to her place through a torrent of rain, all I could think was of my new girl and her phone call just an hour away, wow what a girl. Am really taken by her and every magical thing she does. I sent her a pic of my name that she carved on my back. Am so into that kind of shit too. She fessed up tonight of sexy stuff she wanted to do with me. LMFAO, I actually laughed at her suggestions, cause I was so embarrassed and blushing like mad. Am actually counting the hours until we hook up this weekend and the funny thing is Jenny and I are supposed to hangout the entire weekend,but dam man I want this woman bad...really badly.

The Killer in me. Smashing Pumpkins

Disarm you with a smile
And cut you like you want me to
Cut that little child
Inside of me and such a part of you
Ooh, the years burn (2x)

I used to be a little boy
So old in my shoes
And what i choose is my choice
What's a boy supposed to do?
The killer in me is the killer in you
My love
I send this smile over to you

Disarm you with a smile
And leave you like they left me here
To wither in denial
The bitterness of one who's left alone
Ooh, the years burn
Ooh, the years burn, burn, burn

I used to be a little boy
So old in my shoes
And what I choose is my voice
What's a boy supposed to do?
The killer in me is the killer in you
My love
I send this smile over to you

The killer in me is the killer in you
Send this smile over to you
The killer in me is the killer in you
Send this smile over to you
The killer in me is the killer in you
Send this smile over to you

Monday, October 12, 2009

Found out am in Love again?

So if you want to look all fucking hot as a guy and I mean all muscley like. After all Bro when I left my house a year ago on Oct 12 and filed for divorce. I weighed at least 290 lbs. Am 150 now and DUDE its TRUE WOMEN LIKE A MAN WITH HOT BODY!!!!!! The Links below come from a hell of a women. She was my "T" Girl and no finer babe ever existed. I lost her forever and if I told you how, I lost her you would probably throw a rock at me and call me names. Whats the point man..shes gone and I guess so am I now too. Check out her links below as they not only worked for me, but it will change you forever.

Well Dear Blog Diary: right now am going through probably the worst financial moment in my life. Jesus man, everyone is on me from this to that, its all on me. Even have a crazed ex wife trying her fucking damnedest to jail me. Am horribly embarrassed with "T" Girl and fuck me man this shit sucks hard. Yet among all this crap well I have two beautiful women falling for me and yea, am falling for them hard too. I no longer think I would ever or at least for now call myself a one woman guy anymore. After the Group sex party with my Asian girlfriend (not Jenny) from Skinny's. I no longer get jealous, that's the best and most never thought of side effect from group sex. I guess if you think about it, most obvious too.

On Sunday Jenny and I were going to hang and sex it out like we do almost every weekend for past months. Heheh it rocked to be making love to a young girl, until tonight. Jenny came down with a cold this Saturday. We hung out and I did my best to care for her, medicines, cooking for her and making sure she kicked it well. Maybe overboard, but I had a girl friend once, that I actually forced her to come with me to fix my stupid car while she was sick with flu. I cringe to know I was once so unthoughtful and basically a real inconsiderate asshole. Anyways have been talking to a wonderful woman for past two weeks. We met on a dating site. In August we were going to meet but I got drunk bad one night and sent her pics of me doing stuff and well she wigged big time. She canceled our first date and said she would think about it in Utah as she wrote a book. I was very bummed but well am a little colder when it comes to a woman's stuff now.

So today I figure I head out to beach and wait for Jenny to call me and pick her sweet little ass up right.. She text-ed me, she couldn't make it and would rather stay home and rest, she had lost her voice. I was like hey baby no problem call me if you need anything am at the beach, she lives with her Mom. So I took off to beach but before that I pulled over and Called my 53 year old, ain't fixated on her age you'll read later in this post why I diss that age, its so misleading. She told me she would come to my apartment for supper I was making after beach.

Inside my get the girl to say yea Guts. I was like fuck yea man killer game. She called me on the way over with some stalling thing that a friend of hers had said don't visit a man on first date at his apartment and to go instead to starbucks. I listened patiently, agreed with her but replied sure Doll but lets meet at my place first and then you can follow me to Starbucks..she said great idea. When I hung up I chuckled and thought silly ladies.

Well when she called me later telling me she was on corner of my street. I walked out to greet her and that's when I lost my heart. When I saw her all tall and so fucking gorgeous. I almost fell over man. I walked over fast to her. I thought to myself you and this fine lady have spoken about lot this week on phone, cut the meeting for the first time routine and do her, just do her. When I got close

We shook hands, hugged and kissed her lightly on the lips. She giggled. I took her sunglasses off, and for a second or two, time stopped. My soul fell into her eyes, and it happily drowned in her wonderful magnificence. I grabbed her so gently, but so dam securely and kissed hard now and then we both let our wet lips introduce us to our hungry tongues for the formal introductions.

Guessed we kissed for like, what? 5..mins or so, right there in daylight on sidewalk with some cars honking as they drove bye..Walked over to my place and told her flat out, Christ girl you look like a movie star, she winked told me she was one years ago. I mean she had the most flawless light colored chocolate skin I'd ever seen. Showed her my crappy little apt. I was on a attack mode roll and I pressed her against the wall kissed her and we rubbed into each other for a while.

Seemed like 20 minutes we made out. she stopped pushed me so lightly back with just one little finger and whispered, "am overwhelmed lets get some coffee", and as spoken before on phone, had her follow me to Starbucks. After getting our coffees she said lets go to her car drink and talk. Well we kissed like we were 18 year olds in daddy s car at drive in. I had my fingers in her mouth and man she was grabbing the back of my neck and just inhaling me.

I have never been kissed that way be, well close by my surfer girl, she was just as old or a little older. We took off to my place to what I thought would be me making her dinner instead she laughed,pointed to my bedroom.... she then said, lets go there and have fun". I turned from the stove, looked right at her and shouted Yea!!!!!!!! Yup I know a little to anxious, but keep in mind I just had a 25 year Japanese beauty in same bedroom for past two days. In other words, I was in the middle of a crazy, but so fucking non-ending delicious sex dream and I was fully awake.

The point of all this babbling from a middle aged man is. I want to remember later when I ready this entry, If I changed with love and evolved or stayed the same as I am now. See If My "old Lady" doesn't come back to me tomorrow or following days, which I would find totally strange as I don't read people wrong like that, I wouldn't be devastated or madly sad..lol..nah. Its like Sports Fishing, sometimes you land one and mount it as a trophy, but mostly the others get away........ Yet its fun to fish and try.

Sunday, October 11, 2009

Lol yea thisPwns...

Am Immune now..finally. On Saturday Morning Jenny showed up to apologize and we talked and hell. I found out that I'm now seeing her. Never heard that from any woman I was ever dating. It kinda blew me away that she would see it that way. When I probed, why would you think that we're seeing each other and not just dating? She answered that she spends all her free and days off with me. I was shocked that it was true, she does. Been tripping all day on her. I was so happy she showed up yesterday. The thing is, yea am super happy whens shes here and especially in my bed as we fool around allot there and laugh up a storm. Never been with a girl that you can spend so much time in bed laughing and really just sharing moments that will always be burned into my heart. The problem is as much as I really love her when shes here. Yet as write this entry, I'm still scheming to see how I hang with Mariana today, even though Jenny is supposed to hook up today with me. Thing is Mariana is a writer and has a few books already under her sexy belt and Jenny well shes only 25. What has had me tripping when I dropped Jenny off couple days ago I was like later, were done. I won't tolerate any behavior
from a girl that even so much borders on "indifference". So on Saturday when woke up, I was really sad man. Not broken hearted, but almost. Made some coffee and comforted myself with se Mariana on Sunday. Now hmm I don't know what to do, yea I want both for different reasons, ones younger (25) than me and the other is older (54). Am sleepy, best I rest on this more..

Saturday, October 10, 2009

Golddiggers lmao man.


Gawd! I love her Eyes, but her Way has stolen my own.

Found out the hard way girl I really loved months ago, was nothing but a sleazy gold-digger lol man that hurt. Yet so what, who can blame her she has kids and that's the way it is. Hell man she sold out our love for a free bowling bowl. LMAO man the Ball won, lol man. Well I just dropped a 25 year old as a possible girl friend. the reason? she denied me twice a kiss when I picked her up last week excuse then Mom was nearby and yesterday cause she was close to work? Lol I took her home a little bit ago and told her hmm it ain't working out talk to you later she was floored but who gives a shit. My love and affection are unique and if a babe isn't worth my time and devotion than later man.

Have a date with Mariana (Pic Above) on Sunday. We've been talking every night for a couple hours I say a week now. I like her a lot yea shes a little older than me, but dam she so nice and sweet. I never want to be with a girl that talks so mean and cruelly to me, fuck that man who needs that crap. Why I like Mariana? She took her time to know me and understand everything I'm into. She was scared at first but she took the fucking time to understand. I don't care that a girl is the best fuck in town, hey man love making is subjective to begin with. So what good is a sexy girl that fucks like mad or blows like a hurricane if you don't connect. If your looking for Love then don't settle and keep looking yea its a lonely trip, but its a road best traveled with your Heart in its proper place than on your sleeve.

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

Am a Model Blogger :)


Ok my Blogs disclosure is now I guess in accordance with new Federal Trade Commission Blogging Disclosure Rules of 2009 and if you know me, ya'll know am bout following the fucking laws... huh. Lets see, number one rule of my cheesy blog is. I don't collect emails or ask anyone to even email me. I basically don't like people so you can comment if you feel you "have" to say something, but don't expect an answer and even though I will not moderate a comment, be nice as really scary people read my shit and well its your ass not mine. Do I sell anything here? hmm good question.

According to the FTC Chairman, apparently I do, by the way Chairman Leibowitz I ain't bald like you k.. So I belong to sponsored tweets and I take daily the juiceplus capsules or sometimes I drink the powder or eat the chocolate wafers below. I really don't review products much, but if I tell you what kind of a blade to buy for stuff....get it.

To My ex-wife of what seemed like 1000 years of hard-time. The shit you have posted here in comment section was so, "paint your bedroom walls with menstruation blood vibed" and fucking incredibly disturbing, that a Judge reissued 5 different restraining orders on your crazed ass. I believe Judge Stewart said "a first". DON'T POST HERE AGAIN lunatic bitch!...<--Makes Hex Sign at Evil Ex-Wife. Aside from that I guess that's my disclosure policy as dictated by "Federal Trade Commission Blogging Disclosure Rules of 2009".



LA TIMES Story re FTC Rules

FROM FTC:

For Release: 10/05/2009

FTC Publishes Final Guides Governing Endorsements, Testimonials

Changes Affect Testimonial Advertisements, Bloggers, Celebrity Endorsements

The Federal Trade Commission today announced that it has approved final revisions to the guidance it gives to advertisers on how to keep their endorsement and testimonial ads in line with the FTC Act.

The notice incorporates several changes to the FTC’s Guides Concerning the Use of Endorsements and Testimonials in Advertising, which address endorsements by consumers, experts, organizations, and celebrities, as well as the disclosure of important connections between advertisers and endorsers. The Guides were last updated in 1980.

Under the revised Guides, advertisements that feature a consumer and convey his or her experience with a product or service as typical when that is not the case will be required to clearly disclose the results that consumers can generally expect. In contrast to the 1980 version of the Guides – which allowed advertisers to describe unusual results in a testimonial as long as they included a disclaimer such as “results not typical” – the revised Guides no longer contain this safe harbor.

The revised Guides also add new examples to illustrate the long standing principle that “material connections” (sometimes payments or free products) between advertisers and endorsers – connections that consumers would not expect – must be disclosed. These examples address what constitutes an endorsement when the message is conveyed by bloggers or other “word-of-mouth” marketers. The revised Guides specify that while decisions will be reached on a case-by-case basis, the post of a blogger who receives cash or in-kind payment to review a product is considered an endorsement. Thus, bloggers who make an endorsement must disclose the material connections they share with the seller of the product or service. Likewise, if a company refers in an advertisement to the findings of a research organization that conducted research sponsored by the company, the advertisement must disclose the connection between the advertiser and the research organization. And a paid endorsement – like any other advertisement – is deceptive if it makes false or misleading claims.

Celebrity endorsers also are addressed in the revised Guides. While the 1980 Guides did not explicitly state that endorsers as well as advertisers could be liable under the FTC Act for statements they make in an endorsement, the revised Guides reflect Commission case law and clearly state that both advertisers and endorsers may be liable for false or unsubstantiated claims made in an endorsement – or for failure to disclose material connections between the advertiser and endorsers. The revised Guides also make it clear that celebrities have a duty to disclose their relationships with advertisers when making endorsements outside the context of traditional ads, such as on talk shows or in social media.

The Guides are administrative interpretations of the law intended to help advertisers comply with the Federal Trade Commission Act; they are not binding law themselves. In any law enforcement action challenging the allegedly deceptive use of testimonials or endorsements, the Commission would have the burden of proving that the challenged conduct violates the FTC Act.

The Commission vote approving issuance of the Federal Register notice detailing the changes was 4-0. The notice will be published in the Federal Register shortly, and is available now on the FTC’s Web site as a link to this press release. Copies also are available from the FTC’s Consumer Response Center, Room 130, 600 Pennsylvania Avenue, N.W., Washington, DC 20580.

The Federal Trade Commission works for consumers to prevent fraudulent, deceptive, and unfair business practices and to provide information to help spot, stop, and avoid them. To file a complaint in English or Spanish, visit the FTC’s online Complaint Assistant or call 1-877-FTC-HELP (1-877-382-4357). The FTC enters complaints into Consumer Sentinel, a secure, online database available to more than 1,700 civil and criminal law enforcement agencies in the U.S. and abroad. The FTC’s Web site provides free information on a variety of consumer topics.

MEDIA CONTACT:
Betsy Lordan
Office of Public Affairs

202-326-3707
STAFF CONTACT:
Richard Cleland
Bureau of Consumer Protection
202-326-3088
(FTC File No. P034520)
(endorsement testimonial guide.wpd)

Yea its all bout da Uprising!



I slowly inhale and dare to dream....again.... <3

Monday, October 5, 2009

OMG NO I DIDN'T!!



Waited for a certain young lady to send me her number, she didn't so I had to move on. I don't regret it now. Never had so much fun as this weekend. From dancing at Mango Tango to Jenny's cooking. I think I gained weight with her food, DAMMIT!! How could I not eat her food? she put so much effort into it. Shes such a sweet girl and man she can dance like no other woman like her before. In my tiny little kitchen we can dance over chairs and even step-off my sofa to get more air.

She asked me to move in with her to Santa Monica. Just a few months ago I was looking for a place to move into at Malibu. I don't know if I'm ready to hang so tightly with a woman so soon and a girl half my age at that. Shes way into sex, I mean way into it. Japanese honeys are like no other woman I've ever been with. Shes so into my needs and whenever I try to get into her desires and wants, she leads me back to myself. If you asked me why I like her so much, it would have to be cause she so sweet and considerate. Never met a girl that was so kind to me and especially to others. Yesterday at beach it was a little cold and she took off her brand new jacket and and put it around a old homeless lady. I Fell for her right there and then. I took my sweater off and she wore it so easily without missing a beat.

I need this kind of a human being in my life right now and I think for a while. I don't, nor will I ever argue with a woman again or fight verbally or in text. This is different and so wonderful to be loved in such a sweet, respectful, sensual, but more importantly than anything I've ever known. It's to be loved in such a emphasized gentle way. That's why I will respectfully decline her offer to live with her for now. I will not be a monster and break Jenny's heart. I still have another women in my veins and I think its going to take a while to be free of her mesmerizing and ever enchanting ways. (Looks at 60 Pomona freeway and sighs)

Saturday, October 3, 2009

Yea I Danced..


Update:! Ok my Grand Total to get paid to tweet is now $3.96 heheh. Yea can't retire of it...yet!! but as I know my life I' always get what I really want. What a fucking journey this divorce and finding myself has been. I never been though such hardship imposed or self imposed, its been a a gawdam hard road. That's what make me standing here giving the finger to Satan such a blast. Little coward Lucifer, you tried your best bitch and yet I stand here basking in Gods light. Yea tunnels up ahead and who knows if I'll reach the light at end of tunnel or maybe its a fucking train heading my way. Whatever life holds in store for me and my kids Well God take my life my soul anything you gave me,but spar my blood Dear God protect them and forgive them for their actions against me and others, like your only Son said long ago, Forgive them Father for they know not what they do. Have great weekend people and may we all find what were looking for!!

Last night was the first time I danced with a Latina chick in a long time, months. I swore off Latin chicks after "t" girl, their too dramatic and shit. This girl was different, shes from Spain... LMAO!! She taught me a tango move and well it was on for a few hours on floor. She wanted to leave later with me..I said, "nah Doll maybe next time". We exchanged numbers and stuff. I could tell she was going to be clingy if slept over and to tell ya the truth am done with investing myself so much with Ladies. Rather just have friends with as kids say nowdays "benefits". I will get married maybe next year or year after,but I 'm gonna look for my Princess and I'll say looking is the best part, the chase is even "funner" the first kiss the bestest thing of all..that first kiss... Right now am heading to buy a cheap ass car. Then onto the beach to get a board rack installed onto roof and back to surfining every Sunday until I'm a King of the Waves.

I like being alone now and I mean a lot. I don't like guys around me anymore for this or that party shit. I was meant to hunt and score alone and that's the way its going to be from now on. I heard theres a club in Malibu near the pier for dancing. Gonna check it out tonight. Figure I'll head off after racks to matador beach and chill with any honey wanting to party. What I have learned so far about women? You don't have to go to bed asap to be enjoyed as well to enjoy them. Twice I've made some tight Lady friends by walking with a babe a couple miles on sand and its really fun to flirt with waves hitting your toes.

Other Day I was told I was not a player as I have no special girlfriend, so I ain't cheating on anybody. I felt great when she told me that. I have no special lady in my life but each woman I kiss and make love to is a priceless gift... go figure man how that works. Surfs up pplz. :)

Friday, October 2, 2009

Its my only Wish :)



I can't go any further then this
I want you so badly, it's my biggest wish

I spent my time just thinkin thinkin thinkin bout you
Every single day yes, i'm really missin' missin' you
And all those things we use to use to use to do
Hey girl, wuz up, it use to be just me and you
I spent my time just thinkin thinkin thinkin bout you
Every single day, yes i'm really missin missin you
And all those things we use to use to use to do
Hey girl wuz up, wuz up, wuz up, wuz up

Meet me halfway, right at the boarderline
That's where i'm gonna wait, for you
I'll be lookin out, night n'day
Took my heart to the limit, and this is where i'll stay
I can't go any further then this
I want you so bad it's my only wish

Girl,i travel round the world and even sail the seven seas
Across the universe I go to other galexies
Just tell me where you want, just tell me where you wanna to meet
I navigate myself myself to take me where you be
Cause girl I want, i, i, I want you right now
I travel uptown (town) I travel downtown
I wanna to have you around (round) like every single day
I love you alway..way

Black Eyed Peas Meet Me Halfway lyrics found on http://www.directlyrics.com/black-eyed-peas-meet-me-halfway-lyrics.html
Can you meet me half way (I'll meet you halfway)
Right at the boarderline
That's where i'm gonna wait, for you
I'll be lookin out, night n'day
Took my heart to the limit, and this is where i'll stay
I can't go any further then this
I want you so bad it's my only wish
I can't go any further then this
I want you so bad it's my only wish

Let's walk the bridge, to the other side
Just you and I (just you and I)
I will fly, i'll fly the skies, for you and I (for you and I)
I will try, until I die, for you and i, for you and i, for for you and i,
For for you and i, for for you and i, for you and i

Can you meet me half way (yup yup)
Can you meet me half way (yup yup)
Can you meet me half way (yup yup)
Can you meet me half way (yup yup)
Meet me half way, right at the boarderline
That's where i'm gonna wait, for you
I'll be lookin out, night n'day
Took my heart to the limit, and this is where i'll stay
I can't go any further then this
I want you so bad it's my only wish
I can't go any further then this
I want you so bad it's my only wish

Thursday, October 1, 2009

Hehe it Rocks to be Human..

Dear Sandy, Jenny, and every gorgeous woman that ever gifted me with her burning inner being, Hell Dolls! Thank you. You honeys, that Men can only dream of. Laterz, as I walk away lets us all raise are plastic tea cups of chamomile tea and toast the gods of love as we all loved each other once deeply and true. ^_-