Friday, July 31, 2009

Shes a size 14?


Well considering when I left my marriage 9 months ago I was a size Jaba the Hut, am now 170lbs waist 32 :). I have no problem with her size 14. That photo above is, from some babe I found on google images under the search term size 14. Very Hot and sexy if you ask me heheh. As I emerge from this post divorce cocoon its like being birthed at warp speed. Its very much like you open your eyes, wham you now understand and adjust your course. The girl I've been talking with for a few hours a night past 3 days has been pretty awesome.

That's what I mean by warp speed. Now as an American I arrive back to where I started when I was born, in other words the endless love affair with America begins again. What Nation we own, what a crumb of dirt that God made holy in 1776. This girl I've been flirting and having one hell of a great time is like every other woman I've dated 100% American, except I have never been with a Woman that has seen almost every National Monument of the these United States. I love to travel and to hear what America looks like from her lips well makes me feel, heheh proud and cool.

She has 4 kid lol man FOUR! youngest being 6 year old sweet daughter. Why, why do I always find hardcore Moms? I can't help myself, they are so real and sweetly blunt. She went backpacking through Europe couple years ago and that's when I think I became interested in her. That takes some serious balls not to mention mad people skills especially for a single hottie.
I look forward to meeting her.

til I touch the sky



Breakaway lyrics

Songwriters: Gerrard, Matthew; Benenate, Bridget; Lavigne, Avril Ramona;Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I'd just stare out my window

Dreaming of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray

Trying hard to reach out
But when I'd try to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me

Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I pray
I could breakaway

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes ?til I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I loved
I'll take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean

Get onboard a fast train
Travel on a jet plane, far away
And breakaway

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes 'til I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

Out of the darkness and into the sun
I won't forget all the ones that I loved
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging 'round revolving doors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me but
Gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, breakaway

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway, breakaway, breakaway

Thursday, July 30, 2009

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

I'am back now.

Today my ex wife tried to stick me in jail for six months. I told her not only no, but I let her go free with no jail time for her. I live to protect women, never will harm one or have one suffer cause of me. The Detective told me he's heard about me and told my ex to basically to cool it before the shoe came down hard on the other foot. I did not nor will ever press charges against my ex-wife, regardless of the harm she brings against me. As the detective told me that my ex wife has lost all credibility in her city's court and that her judicial measure laid in my hands. All I could do was feel bad for her and told the officer to please talk to her and bring her to her senses,by the ends day all was resolved in our mutual favors. I will always love my ex wife, never can see her as an enemy even though she has betrayed me in a 100 ways. I don't give a fuck I fell in love with her when I was 13 years old and married her at 19. Stood by her as the madness that plagued her Mom slowly consumed and finally manifested itself in her. I swore I would take her to an island before anybody carted her to a asylum. Yet life had other plans for us, hence divorce. The babe I spoke to on Tuesday night was mad hot and look forward to meeting real soon. We shall see where this roller coaster heads to,

Wow Bro!

I met a girl last night that blew my mind, yea we going out mad soon. Shes Hispanic but I don't give a crap shes ho0t and makes mind spin. We talked for hours and the country's we've seen.

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Part 2....



Today has been one hell of a day of self improvement and understanding. Its a powerful style when you can meet a young lady and four hours later you and your 2 other buds are making love to her at same time. I am no longer the same poor fuck that I was on Saturday. After last night I see women different and they see me too as well. Will I ever fall in love again? I really don't know, but seriously doubt it, at least for now. I cooked us all dinner from food we had brought from El Puesto and our girl said I reminded her of some rich dude in a movie that stole paintings and would cook dinner as cops searched his house. Well I ain't rich so who knows what she meant although I think I know what she was getting at. From a woman in early 50's to a another in her late 20's I have tasted them all now. From different countries to natural grown, all Americans though. Am looking forward to Europe this Fall.

When I step on the scene
Ya'll know me, cause I walk with a limp
Like an old school pimp or a real og
I rocking VANS
I'm in the sand
I've a got a red bull and vodka up in my hand
Hey, you're looking kind of cute in that polka dot bikini, girl
Hey, this is what I want to do, take of that polka dot bikini, girl.

Drink all day
Play all night
Let's get it poppin'
I'm in Miami bitch
Drink all day
Play all night
Let's get it poppin' I'm in Miami bitch

Everybody on smash, smash
Hands in the air, air
I'm feelin on her ass, ass
Like a nigga don't care. Like a nigga don't care
I've gotta a plan, what's your cell
We playing naked twister back in my hotel
Hey, you're looking kind of cute in that polka dot bikini girl
Hey, this is what I want to do take of that polka dot bikini girl

Drink all day
Play all night
Let's get it poppin'
I'm in Miami bitch
Drink all day
Play all night
Let's get it poppin' I'm in Miami bitch

Get your hands up
Put that ass up
Get you hands up
I'm in Miami bitch
Put put that ass up
I'm in Miami bitch
Get yo get yo get yo get yo hands up
Put that put that put that put that ass up
Get yo get yo get yo get yo hands up
Put that put that put that put that ass up
Get yo get get yo hands
Put put put put that ass up
Put that ass up put that ass up
I'm in Miami bitch

(Damn, motherfuckin' thirsty)

It's Mornin' time and the girls still there
They lying naked with some Asses in the air (That's what I'm talkin' bout)
Anna wants it bad she's got some big kahunas
But I say I'll be back gotta get some more Coronas
Hey, you're looking kind of cute in that polka dot bikini, girl
Hey, this is what I want to do take of that polka dot bikini, girl

Drink all day
Play all night
Let's get it poppin'
I'm in Miami bitch
Drink all day
Play all night
Let's get it poppin' I'm in Miami bitch

Get your hands up
Put that ass up
Get you hands up
I'm in Miami bitch
Put put that ass up
I'm in Miami bitch
Get yo get yo get yo get yo hands up
Put that put that put that put that ass up
Get yo get yo get yo get yo hands up
Put that put that put that put that ass up
Get yo get get yo hands
Put put put put that ass up
Put that ass up put that ass up
I'm in Miami bitch

Monday, July 27, 2009

How did it go?

Well Manny's daughter canceled at the end but holy mackerel, what happened next changed my life forever. Edgar and Efferent are all freaked that they may miss some stupid soccer game. I tell them ok we will leave all these girls and the beach, to go back to valley so you can see your game. they didn't see anything wrong with that and to tell you the truth it was one week ago on Sunday that I had a date with a total blond beach bunny, it didn't work out so I was kinda bummed a little to be at beach. Also had major personal history and current financial problems on my mind. As I was heading down on PCH to get freeway as I just didn't feel like racing up sunset today.

I get a call from my little Japanese girl that I met like 2-3 months ago at Skinny's. We had danced that night and I felt we had shared a little chemistry. Well when she gave me a date a month later I missed it as I just wanted to hang with my friend Ben and get buzzed. So I told her something at work had come up. She didn't give another chance at a date until today. So I Told her same thing I told Mannys daughter. It was something in her voice that made me add stats of my boys. I heard gasp ever so quietly. Told her we were close to her place (she lives in Santa Monica). She said she would love to hangout with us all at beach. (AM SLEEPY long sexy night will write this post tommorrow)

Sunday, July 26, 2009

OMFG THIS IS HOT MAN!!

Need to preface this post with Efrain's comments. He was quite stern this morning when he saw me drop off girl I had over this Morning for some NSA SEX. He was like wtf ,"007 why you doing this crazy shit man"? Hehehe like I told him this 007 has taken a break and is being a bad, bad boy for awhile. I take no prisoners and I leave no heart behind swollen with love for me. Fuck em and feed em is my motto for now. Sure I lose maybe on a love of a lifetime, but I been there and done that for 30 years and no longer believe any woman when it comes to "love". I have stood at the edge of eternal love and been driven back by the reality that it doesn't exist, all men and women fucking lie. Why? lmao man you tell me why.

I all I know is God himself has bestowed on me a gift to brings his justice to those that seek to escape it hiding behind Satan's wings. Nay bitch nothing hides from me, nothing can escape me when I hunt for it. That's why God has granted me immortality and I no longer fear death or any man. I am here if you want to test my theory? Your evil asshole want a chance at me?? ROFL call me asshole and I'll bury you where you stand, HEY COWARD heres my number, bitch call me. 323-540-2803 hehe lets get this party started lmao~~~~~~~~~

OK an hour ago I get a call from Mawi beautiful girl I met surfing months ago, Manny's daughter.
She was like hey Mr. Tuffy, hehe that's what she calls me lmao man. She called and asked what I was up to, told her hey Doll am in Malibu lets play. I was actually a little drunk at Gladstones trying to pick up a sweet underage blond lol at least underage by my standards lmao. Told her my Friends Efrain and Edgar where with me and if she wanted to hang out with us. She was like hmm sexy ok. I tripped never tripled a gal before but who knows maybe am racing ahead of myself,but it pays to be always ready.

Love can reach deep man.

UPDATE: Ok reason I wrote this is the main reason I forgot to post. CRAIGSLIST FOR GUYS WANTING NSA SEX K!!! I have found already 3 babes that will do nasty wonderful things to your know what for free, but more importantly for fun!! I thought omg I have sunken to new lows, until I met a couple of them and wow. Am talking fine as fuck!! and they are great at breakfast. Have a date with one on Monday night at her place!! It was painless to meet her and subsequent babes, simple pics, stats and number. They use condoms even to blow you, but so what its the sexual human contact I seek. They could wrap me with a car cover and I would care less. Not to mention they are pretty and sweet had dinner with one gal after the bj and it was strange for me, but really nice to talk to such a free spirit.

Yet I had to ask ya know me Mr. Questions. I asked aren't you scared to meet strange men like this? Are you looking for Mr. Right this way? Does having sex with complete strangers after talking on phone exiting? How do you know I won't basically kill you and stuff you in a fridge? One said she was a black belt,I kinda believed her, another said she didn't care her "sex" Angel is watching over her, LOL. Another said wow baby how do you know you haven't fallen in my web and your dinner? Thats the girl I have a date with Monday, lmao how could I not after that comment.

Wow what a night man. I think I broke my own record for assholes buried and forgotten. So many parents will never have to know or worry for that matter on what happened tonight. I miss that beauty "T" Girl goddammit. I just can't get her out of my dam veins. Have dated tons of girls after her to get her out of my mind and I just fucking can't WTF MAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I mean I even dated a few hookers, not paid mind you, but they became my Girlfriends and still their sex never even came close to hers, let alone her Wiley ways. Thank God I never danced with her cause if she did dance I know I would have lost my mind over her.

Today I met a girl that looked so much like her my Bro Efrain came over and said no Dude you can't go there and wreck this ones heart too. He was right I asked her to get out of my car and I left almost in tears man. So I now can blog and twitter from my cell phone takes allot longer, but here I'm in Malibu waiting for dawn. Am going surfing today without my Son, so am tying on a hellacious of a buzz overlooking beach on cliff. Today it occurred me that I've been smoking weed for since I was 14 lmao man. Wow what a druggie rofl, sok it works for me and most of Disney studios graphic and creative departs too, that's another post to explain.

Saturday, July 25, 2009

Lets feed all night k?

Am running in valley village, forgot I have a huge mailing list of pedos. Gosh this is like taking candy from a baby. Hit already 3 homes, heading to my 4Th now. Am in a real fucking pissy mood lmao to say the least. I'm not even playing cat & mouse, just slashing and dashing. Tonight before I lay my pretty little head to sleep over 20 kids will be avenged and saved from further abuse. Yea am good with it, if you don't like that? fuck off and die tnxs. :)

Took EFEREIN for a ride lmao

Took EFEREIN my neighbor for for a ride through Hell itself, lmao. We went to mango tango in no ho, bad area of no ho. How do you know when as a man you look Fuckable and hot? When babes ask you too dance as you lean on a wall tucked away far from dance floor. I had just finished fighting with my people big time and I was so fucking sad about it. Last thing I wanted was to dance or chase after girls half my age. Yet I owe my neighbor man, hes a good dude and has been there when I needed a woman's warmth in bed. He helped me score them at dance clubs. Hell my bro has introed me to most of the clubs I hunt at. So as I danced and went through motions I was like fuck man is this it? Must have kicked it on floor for 3 hours or until 2 am. I kinda liked it being asked by woman to dance. Takes the embarrassment of being turned down while clubbing.

I never said no to any babe no matter how she looked or how she didn't look. Many where pretty nice and my boys would yell at me on floor wtf man??,? Take her?????? I didn't. I think I reached the end of the fuck anything that looks hot and squishy road man. Kissing "K" Girl made me want something stable and permanent. I like them blond and older than me I think. LMAO man am so fucking lost. So I take Efrain and Edgar we me, after all am in a loaner BMW, so I said bitches before we got to club I googled some child molesters, now its your turn to play in my world. They freaked at 160mph on freeway. It didn't matter, after all I don't die. ROFL don't know bout them though lmao!!!!!!!

Well I was kinda wasted on hash pulled up to some fuck in Beverly hills, hes been getting away with fucking little 10 year old's cause hes got a great lawyer. His lawyer wasn't there tonight at his place. Its ok he was the next stop and Efrain had a ball with him. I think it was the I'm a mechanic from Mexico and your a lawyer in Bel Air thang ROFL!!!!!! We used Edgard s hand welder to burn this fucks sack off lmao He screamed so loud or sounded like he did. My boys thought. I was mad cool as I ripped the little fucks heart out all the while it was still beating. Like I told my crew it takes skill and a deft hand to know when to rip it out from chest. We googled it from the poor dead bitch's pc and yea if you cut the..aww fuck it do you really need to know this LMAO!!!!

Friday, July 24, 2009

Please call (

Darling I'm so sorry you feel this way. Baby that's not even my car. Please sweetheart answer your cell.





Thursday, July 23, 2009

I Name Thee "K" Girl :)

Am way over my pointy little head with this girl, wow man. She is the best kisser on this Earth. Plans changed and she came to my end of the valley. We watched some live bands at Skinny's and kissed like teens with nowhere to be or go. This is the first girl I date without drinking alcohol with her. "K" Girl likes to order diet drinks, I order bottled water. She is without a question beautiful. She was tired at the end and I was recovering from the body's denial of immortality. Drove her home and walked her to the door, kissed all the way and I really like her. I just don't get her. She told me she was a handful, but which woman isn't? I doubt it will work out, as I can't even imagine what kind of brain power it takes to run with this girl. In other words I rather go out in her eyes as a brave, ready to die for a woman kind of a guy, then a an idiot like last time. Ernesto was right, am light years from having a relationship with a real woman, he meant like star war light years...<----Pushes the spectre of loneliness aside and puts head down on desk and heavily sighs.

Sunday, July 19, 2009

It freaking happened again!!!!!!!

OMFG!!!!!!!! Twice in a lifetime is not only impossible, but so dam lucky. Ok here it is. This week has been so fucking tough, I mean tough. Its really just money problems, just dam annoying as you plan to take over the world. First I got a temporary restraining order on my ex wife. ROFL MAN! wait till she gets that shit served on her this week lmao man. The judge had a freaking cow when he read my statement. Issued it on the spot and she has to stay 100 yards away and I can record her calls to me. Yet that great victory is nothing compared to who I met and kissed all day today. On Thursday a girl sent me a email from a dating service I belong to. A platinum blond. I was like right, massive scam I bet. I replied with my cell phone number in email, figuring that should kill the Nigerian connection.

She called me a few hours later as I was making tacos. I was stunned that she was real and the way she pronounced my name, made my heart all fuzzy. Yet I was like yea, I felt same about "T" Girl and we all know how I blew that deal. So we talked a bit and planned a lunch date for Sunday at 1:00 in the fucking afternoon? Thought well that's going to be a bad date. I was, so what, there was something on how she said my name that made me want to keep the date. She calls next day and leaves a voice mail that her church group gets off early and if we could move it up down to 12:00, well I figured more bad vibes. I left her a voice mail, it was no problem.

At 12:00 I show up to the pit-fire pizza co. Wait until 12:45 I call her and say, "well Doll I was here sorry we didn't get to meet". I go home a little bummed about it. At 1:45 she calls and I answer, she asks its 1:15 what happened, I explain that I showed up at 12:00 based on her voice mail and she starts apologizing for her mistake of forgetting. I said, "baby no problem" so I push it and ask, hey instead of that pizza joint how about we get out of the oven the valley is becoming and head to beach. She said whatever you want, she really felt bad she had me wait since 12:00. ROFL if your a guy reading this you know that it was a great thing her forgetting.

So I show up to pitfire in 10 minutes and FUCK YEA ITS HER MAN!!!!!! The coffee dude running stand outside of pitfire place asks me you find her? I say yea see that honey inside shes mine bro. I open door as she is looking inside for a table, she turns and I say Hi Doll hug her and give her a kiss on the cheek. She hugs me back and off we go to my car. Have a loaner from car repair shop. In fact better bmw than my own. Am giving up my old beemer another post for that. So we take off to beach using cold-water canyon to get onto sunset. Since shes a real estate broker she explains that the bunch of signs in brentwood listing homes is a bad things as banks no longer take stated income info. Meaning you got to prove you have the money. Anyways I kiss her after filling up for gas at brentwood. Not a deep kiss I just reach over and kiss her on the lips. She opened her mouth a little but I didn't tongue her. I figure I did same with "T" Girl and this time something was different. I am wiser for the hurt of a love of a lifetime lost and this fucking time I ain't going to blow it.

We get to Cora's restaurant on ocean park and sit next to dave chapelle and his kids. She lets me order for her and wow man what a convo man what a freaking convo. Right now as I remember everything about today am about to write about, I'm all freaking smiley and dancing in front of PC LMAO MAN!!!!!!!!! Today for the first time in my life after leavening my wife that I show a woman who the fuck I am man!!!!!!! So we eat and lmao man I didn't care that restaurant was full of movie starts and shit. I had this woman in my sights and it mattered not who was eating next to us. So when we finished I asked her how about we walk to beach and hang out she was like sure. She surfs too and sails. I kissed her in parking lot. We drove to and a little past Venice Pier. Parked on a side street and walked to beach.

Her eyes are grey steel like with a tinge of blue. When she looked at me directly I would gasp a little each time. Huge eyelashes with those eyes and when she grabs her blond hair in her hand she looks like a babe from Netherlands. We walked to beach and HOLY freaking christ we made out like kids. We kissed on rocks and moved to sand and kissed, talked, laughed for a couple hours. She told me what name of ships or classes that were sailing on ocean. Mentioned about spinnakers and stuff. She was married for decades like me. I FUCKING LIKE HER ALLOT MAN!!

We laid on sand kissed and talked. I never met a girl that liked to kiss in public. Shes so fucking gorgeous. You guys remember that blond girl at high school that was so pretty and sweet to people? ROFL yea that's whom I'm now dating. So we head back from beach and yea we tight now. I take her back to pizza place, but the coffee stand is closed, so I suggest Starbucks across from us. We make out in Starbucks back corner table and she giggles a lot. So she tells me she took some electric bus to get here and and asks if I can drive her back up street to stop. Yea am like on it. So we make out at bus-stop or whatever the hell am waiting with Robin for. When it shows up I walk her onto it. Now this is what the whole post is about.

A black woman in front me as I say goodbye from outside of door tells a guy next to her that hes a stupid fag. The guy goes nuts on the black woman, calls her a stupid cunt. Have been told lately that before I go nuclear on a human, my voice gets lower, so low that it becomes a whisper. All I care is about Robin, who is just inches away from this asshole. I get on vehicle steps and tell the dude to relax, he can't hear me. My girl then tells this bastard, that I am behind him and he better relax, he barks back her that he is relaxed. I snapped!!!!!!!

I jab him on the back with my finger he falls forward a bit, turns looks at me. I guess its true what "T" Girl used to say. I have a murderous look. He starts to back up, but its too late. I' m going to kill the little bitch and I don't give a shit that the train or bus, whatever the fuck this thing is is jammed with people. He just made his last mistake of his worthless life. As I move in on him. Robin looks at me, and says my name and adds that she thinks the guy got the message and to spare him. I look at her, smile and while bowing to her say, "whatever you command my lady, I obey". I slowly walk backwards never taking my eyes off that little coward and get off the rapid transit crap. I stay there looking at Robin as she pulls away and she winks at me. I fucking melted and grew like 20 feet all at the same time. She later calls me next day and tells me the guy apologized to the black woman and he thanked Robin for keeping me off him.

So I ask Robin did she enjoy our date? She said my name and included words like fantastic to describe how she felt with me. I was like so dam happy, so I decide to do it. I ask, "hey Darling how about I make dinner for you this week at my place and you know"?She said, "hmm I don't know, your not my boyfriend yet". I laughed and shot back, "sorry darling I don't want to be your boyfriend am more of a Manfriend. She giggled and said, "heck yea, cool answer baby, I'll come over to you". I know shes older than me, I say at least 4 years. I don't care, am so fucking into her. I haven't even made love to her yet and I'm nuts about her.

Friday, July 17, 2009

Well Folks its how it goes


Esta es mi historia y la voy a contar
De una chica que me pone mal
Ella es muy fina no se deja ni hablar
Y no sé cómo la podre conquistar
Tiene unos ojos un lindo caminar
Con sus amigas siempre sale a pasear
Y si la ven díganle la verdad
Que asta hoy no la dejo de pensar

Por eso lloro y lloro
Y nada me da fe
Porque la quiero y no aguanto
Y no la puedo tener
Por eso lloro y lloro
Son lágrimas de amor
Por eso lloro y lloro
Y esa es mi solución

Sigo luchando en ganarme su amor
su piel, sus besos, todo su calor
Tarde o temprano ella sabrá que soy yo
Él que llora para su corazón
No es nada malo tampoco es un error
Llorar por alguien que no te da su amor
Y si la ven díganle por favor
Que aquí estoy
Que aquí estoy

Por eso lloro y lloro
Y nada me da fe
Porque la quiero y no aguanto
Y no la puedo tener
Por eso lloro y lloro
Son lágrimas de amor
Por eso lloro y lloro
Y esa es mi solución

Por eso lloro y lloro
Y nada me da fe
Porque la quiero y no aguanto
Y no la puedo tener
Por eso lloro y lloro
Son lágrimas de amor
Por eso lloro y lloro
Y esa es mi solución

Por eso lloro y lloro
Y nada me da fe
Porque la quiero y no aguanto
Y no la puedo tener
Por eso lloro y lloro
Son lágrimas de amor
Por eso lloro y lloro y lloro y lloro

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

SANDY I LOVE YOU

Call ME SANDY 323 -540-2803 Ive been in love with you since I first saw you. You are without the question the most beautiful girl Ive ever met. Your eyes told me stories. I know you can feel my heart dying to become one with yours. Ive been all over the world baby and wow when it comes down to you no women exists like you. Take my hand Sandy. I pledged my love and devotion to God in front of you baby! No women on this Earth makes me feel like you do Sandy. I truly without question love you.

Hi and lol

This is so freaking hard to understand. Example: Ex wife showed up with my Son to get a signed release from me letting my Son travel internationally. Of course I fucking want my Son to travel all over the world chasing, flirting and exploring the world as only a young man can do. My ex said I looked great and lol man she kissed me hard. What a trip its been to married for so long wow man what a trip was to have a woman love me so hard. Wow man I love being in love with babes. I don't care who or whats the trip is all about. Just to hug a woman and dance with her, to love her under the sheets top laughing at breakfast. Anything that involves a man and a woman and the interaction of a made to believe love is splendid,.

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Lol man do they get Hotter?

I had no choice..

My ex wife came after me with everything she had. Cops still going through crap. Its a horrible thing to see a twenty seven year marriage die. My Lawyer is getting a harassment order against my ex wife tomorrow by midday. What a horrid thing it is to have a mans pride. You have no fucking idea how bad I miss "T" Girl, never have known such a love for a girl like her. I think of her daily. Everything about her was perfect I fucking loved her man. Yet my pride and hell by now shes gone forever. How I will always love and remember her.

Reason my ex wife is freaking insane with anger, is I told her I was leaving for Italy next year. She was like what about your son and daughter? I was like have them visit me in Rome baby, sorry, but that's what divorce is about right? Am done with equality in women and shit when it comes down to it I 'm ready to die for any woman I fall in love with. The fucking least she can do is obey me in her daily life, as I have only her best interest at heart. My ex wife is freaking out as I found out yesterday that our divorce is now in judgment clerk hands. Past week have been dating a call girl or a hooker whatever man. Shes a babe that makes money fucking other fuckers like me. Difference is she pays for me at dinner at shit. Simply I can't afford her dinners and stuff. Chayas man? lol give me a break man. Feldmans lol right!!!! When I asked why me? she said none eats her like I do. I took it as a compliment and so forth.

Yet theres a girl in San Diego that I would chase untill the end of time shes fucking beautufull an d she loves her nephew bigtime. Am ready to move down there if she even knew my name man.

Ok this Madly Rocks.

When I make love to woman, I feel all Tiger like right after. Most guys must feel something. I remember years ago when I was married and you would wave at other guys smoking cigs on cruise ship balconies, all with our "just got some" grins. This week I have never had such wild and uninhibited sex. She doesn't care where or what time or who even the fuck is watching. She says I have nice muscly arms lol! Yesterday I let her watch me surf the coast. Waves were dead, but I just wanted to show a woman that just had given herself to me so freely hours before on bluff overlooking surfer point, what I was into. Ever since "T" Girl, I've been with the most beautiful women I've ever known. They all have danced, dined and intertwined with moon beams as we walked on the sand. I have done nothing, but always be the most considerate, attentive and gallant date and later Friend as possible.

Yet I feel no love or unbridled passion as I did for "T" Girl. Each girl has been a gem and wow man total grins and mad good times. Its just that when I drove on the 60 Pomona freeway to "T" Girls place, I would feel so intense and proud that a woman like T was waiting for me with kids at her cozy home. I do not consider a date a waste of time or at least I sure hope not, I'll do my best for us to have a good time. I no longer date long distance. No further than 5 miles from my place or no date. Yet for a certain babe in San Diego, lol yea I would travel it happily lmao man..dudes and what they do.

Sunday, July 12, 2009

Lol I don't care she Hooks.

Last night after my post I took off to Casa Vega in studio city. Last time there on a great date I saw droves of babes and well it was Saturday. I won't meet a girl at a bar unless she buys me a drink first, its weird I know and I bet I miss out on a lot of good girls, but its bad girls this Pirate be looking for... Argh matey...lmao About 30 mins into the drink( tanqueray martini, shaken not stirred and just think of the vermouth). I get the "drink" sent over if I may preface this post with that the last category you could place me as a man, is "handsome" that I am not, nor even good looking, cute or anything like," omg hes gorgeous" lmao man. Its just easy for the girl that can see what I am and what I'm into to pick me up, that's all. I get the drink sent over and well I look to see who the bartender is pointing to and FUCK MAN!!!!

Its without question the most beautiful girl, I've ever seen and not only that she was so freaking sexy, am kinda of a sucker for a girl with a mink, throw in a diamond choker and lol man am lost. I gulp the new drink down, bow curtly toward her, start to move in her direction and whack I slam into the cocktail waitress and knock her glasses off her tray onto floor and well I got soaked. I turn to look at the goddesses and shes laughing her ass off, looking straight at me. I start to laugh to move backwards to start towards her again and I step on some lady in back of me, she yelps and falls backwards on her man. As am apologizing to this lady's husband who is a gigantic muscular cross between THOR and the Green HULK. My girl comes over put her arm inside mine, smiles at the couple and leads me away to a table for dinner and the most memorable time I've ever had with a woman in my life.

Today she told me something and well here I am blogging it as I do everyday of my lifes events. Its what I do its not like you care or give a shit its just so somebody my kids anybody one day will remember and maybe even mention that I existed that's all this blog is for. When I leave for Europe next year I will post every every fucking picture of every mortal sin Ive committed and not will I blush or rue the day as I chose to do it freely and most willingly. I am what I am said Popeye the sailor man,. Last night wow man just fucking wow. So this morning at marmalade's on the strip. I ask her at breakfast whats the deal?, it was too perfect like a movie in fact. She grabbed my wrist and said only this right at me, straight into my eyes she said, "Baby I like you and I'm a hooker".

Many images and movies or mind thoughts flew through me when she said that, but mostly one image took root hard and deep. She asked me if I would have a problem with that, I assumned that being that she was a hooker I guess. I just giggled man, actually giggled lmao and said yea I would have a problem. She was so sweet and said she could make me forget about being possessive, all consuming and to be just like she said, "chillaxe?" lmao told her nah, that jealousy and all consuming love was my thing. She has one hell of a huge-ass apartment in Encino though and I kinda of like her in a, "I know what we do to survive kinda of a way", but man, I am jealous when I fall hard.

Saturday, July 11, 2009

Dating pretty girls...

My life is about dating pretty girls and just being all I can be to whomever. I have changed so much or maybe just evolved is a better term. If your a guy I'll rip your throat just for looking at me all dogged and shit, but if your a girl, what won't I do for you Darling. I no longer hold myself to just dating a single sweetheart, nay sir its better we all explore what we can be to each other before sealing the commitment with a Souls Kiss. To each and every Woman on Earth I thank you for your existence and breathe heavily that perhaps we will never ever meet, but theres always another lifetime :)

Friday, July 10, 2009

My 800th Follower

My 800th Twitter Follower is below :)
http://twitter.com/dVisibleMag

Life is so fucking weird man. Last night my "EX-WIFE" called crying and left a voice mail hysterically stating that she was sorry and wanted to get back together. Lol man maybe three hours after I left my house 9 months ago, it might have worked. Now its too late, way too late. I no longer belong to my past and look only toward the future. I fell really hard for "T" Girl. I mean hard, even now I still think about her alot. Sure theres been other women in my life lmao, "life" ya all 8 months ago. Jamician, Hungarian, Americans, Latins, even a little tight Japanese honey. Hell yea have been carefull and all the girls I've been with sexually, except for little Japanese babe have been great moms, careful and discrete women.

Have been taking it easy and ex wife even said I could do all the crap from Rome and she would even help me?..LMAO Man like I said 3 hours ago after I left house 9 months ago..maybe. Now? LOL no thanks babe. We had a great 27 years and well that's all she wrote. Yet the problem? LMAO its a huge problem for a werewolf like me man. I CA NOT BE FUCKING ALONE!!!! LMAO man roger that. Am so used to having and being surrounded by a family for 30 years I find that I go nuts alone. There's been times I've kept my target alive for days just so I could talk to him as he died slowly. Just so I wouldn't be lonely. Kinda sick yea I know, but loneliness is my worst and most hated enemy. Right now the girl am involved with is crazy beautfuill man. Kinda babe you lucky to even know let alone date. Yea guys seize up when she packs for bear and I get all mushy inside when we dance and stuff

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

Swing Dancing is Mad Hot!


Hung out with Morris (pic above) and Eferain last night and lmao man it was a blast. Dancing with a Woman that really loves to swing is beyond words.

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

Kirsteno = True American Woman..

El_Delicioso This lady---> http://twitter.com/kirsteno <---- has done a lot for our Troops and I truly thank you for it Darling!

Monday, July 6, 2009

The Mall Test!

Before "T" Girl I hadn't been to a mall like the Glendale galleria close to 20 some odd years. Didn't go much when I was newly married and later as decades raced by, I just sent my people to get me whatever I needed. When I took "T" Girl a few months back to Glendale galleria, not only was it to take her to some jewelry shops, mostly the Hawaiian one forgot name, but its the one you always see on the travel books on a cruise ship. My real reason for Mall trip was to show off "T" Girl yea shameful, but true.

A guy like me really never gets to or rather in my defense ever tries to date beautiful women. "T" Girl was BEAUTIFUL! so yea I had to do what dicks like me do. SHOW HER OFF TO THE WORLD LOL MAN!!!! Wow man I remember strolling with "T" right into Victoria's secret and "T" giggling that I was like a little kid in a candy store lmao so fucking true. Anita is 5'10 long mouth watering legs, eyes as deep as the pacific ocean and man she can talk so husky and lightly all at the same time. Shes been 15 years unmarried, when I asked her why so long she said it was cause of me.

The deal is Anita is an old family friend of my parents and hers. We kinda of knew of each other and had seen each other a few times as teens hanging with others. Yet we went both our ways, until we met again. I was now married my wife and I hired Anita for many tasks, including being of service in some real tough cases. She became my personal secretary for a few years and never was a flirt passed between us of any kind. So when I got divorced, my ex wife asked if I wanted to date Anita? I was like sure why not ? LMAO. It had occurred to me perhaps my ex wife and Anita had an affair and now, I guess passing the torch. Yet I just had figured out that "T" girl and I were finished so I thought why not.

I love showing Anita off all the time, she is so sweet and considerate. Tonight as we drank wine at pier. I asked her what she meant that she hadn't married cause of me. I figured she say it was cause she was in love or had been with me or to that effect. She said that she knew our marriage was dying a long time ago and that she knew that I would need her badly.She added that the months turned into years and dropped a little bomb. She said it with such a sadness that honestly. I don't know if I should just say fuck it and just settle, take her or say no Darling it won't work. She whispered while lying facing me that she had heard me say many times the real name of "T" Girl in my sleep and call Anita "T" Girls name instead of her own. I didn't even try to act surprised or shocked. I knew it was true at least the wrong name issue.

Saturday, July 4, 2009

and I danced


Wow man last night at skinny's I danced for hours with Anita, we drank martinis and just drank all nite. I had the greatest time. when I dance the world gels to perfection. Way a girl turns her back on you and you dance rubbing against her. One point we had a a few cheering us on as we swung around the floor. The swing lessons paid off man. So When Anita woke up I showed her pic of sheets torn off my bed and her all passed out after a great night of making it like bunnies in heat lmao. She giggled and asked me to check her website. I did and found my pic , am all with my mouth wide open drooling like mad lmao man. She has me under her biz title with caption, "yea hes my guy". She told me she took it after I passed out.

Rolf man I love chicks that poke fun at me man. I don't know why it tickles me like mad but it does. Sweet "T" Girl wherever you may be, may God keep ya and bless you, cause you gave me my sex drive back, after it was dormant for so many years. I thank you Sandy for everything you have been and will always mean to me. Now I understand I'm free and not really meant to ever belong to any woman no matter how priceless she may be. I belong to the ages and have been ruined for any Sweet Lass after 30 years of marriage. I am too headstrong and dangerous. I have lost all my humanity now and no longer have a conscience I adore being with all types and styles of women, Hence or like "T" Girl used to call me Mr. Henceworth, LOL. I can't nor will ever settle down with a just one woman. When I was in Oxnard this week with Ben. We chased and caught some young honeys at local supermarket mine was the cashier and Ben's was the bagger.

Dear Blog Diary guess what my fucking line was? I tell Ben ok dude if it works I get her if it goes bad I get maybe slapped or thrown out, Ben's like OK man go for it lmao. I walk up to her get into her cashier space hand her flowers I just bought at another cashiers spot and tell her all in Italian mind you. that's she stunning and that I want to go out for dinner, dancing and lovemaking at beach. She laughs hard man and just before, I guess I melted out of supreme embarrassment she says lets see how dinners goes ok Don Juan? I laughed hard and she set up Ben with a young pretty baggier or baguette? lol man. We all had fun by dawns rising lol. She was like you coming back to my town or what. I thought about it and said yes I think I'm. In reality if you think about it its a nice place intense beaches for whatever you need, not to mention very nasty but in a good way nasty live there. I saw many as Ben strolled our dates at the pier,.

Thursday, July 2, 2009

I meant every word too.



WOW She was pretty man. So after canceling out on me the "babe" met me tonight at Starbucks. We hit it off pretty well. Even got the, "call me Hon when you get home", request. I have always thought that as a sweet gesture and very considerate. She was fucking stunning man. I mean it was magical on how we flirted and probed. Eyes that could be so furtively mysteriously sexy. There isn't one day yet in past 3 months that I haven't thought of "T" Girl. I fell so hard for her, why so hard and so long, who knows man, but I did. Tonight this wonder of a woman was so freaking hot. I know she gasped when I told her about her eyes. She told me no one has ever told what I did. I meant every word too.

We closed Starbucks and stayed talking outside of her car. I really did my best to charm and it was strange this time man. With "T" Girl it was the most exciting date I've ever been on. Meeting every woman of course has been an adventure and such a unique privilege. I know God really loves all, as he gave us each other to find and maybe love again. I once loved deep and true and it was wonderful. Then I experienced love at first sight, a true miracle and wow man something you have to feel to understand. This hottie is a Caribbean babe lmao and doesn't know how to swim. Told her if she wanted to hang out with my Son and I on Sunday and watch us surf at Malibu. I was happy when she said yea. Yea "T" Girl was special and unfathomable, but so is every woman..yes?

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

Can't help myself

Lol so much for not dating, lol man! FREAKING WOMEN ARE SO BEAUTIFUL HOW CAN YOU NOT DATE?