Monday, May 25, 2009

Wow Man lets take a break.

Just canceled with Maria. I just can't do it. Its not only unfair to these beautiful women, but at this point I'm wasting their time. I don't feel I can love anyone for awhile after "T" Girl. Dam man, I have tried to forget her for about four weeks now lmao. I just fucking can't lmao man. Lol am sure she doesn't even remember my name anymore, but its ok I'm best a forgotten memory. Have changed allot since I kissed her last. I'm no longer human. I know what I want in life and unfortunately happiness and a family life embedded in loving bliss is not an option. I now scour flop houses and out placement services looking for those whose guilt outweighs their need to breathe.

I no longer turn the other way when I see injustice, nor do I weigh the consequences of my actions and what they deliver to my persona. I have seen things that should never have been seen and my eyes are fully operational. I can see all the evil around me and how Good fights it everyday frozen forever in that moment of realization that the fight will never end. Gawd how I love it man. I answer to no man. I belong never again to any woman. I have taught my spawn how to defend and strike back at any human foolish enough to mock Gods words and they're own safety. This blog will be the only proof that I ever existed, its photos a self confessional of a mans quest to alter a present course that was best left to others.

I Think I Love You
The Partridge Family

I'm sleeping

And right in the middle of a good dream
like all at once I wake up
From something that keeps knocking at my brain
Before I go insane
I hold my pillow to my head
And spring up in my bed
Screaming out the words I dread:
"I think I love you!" (I think I love you)

This morning, I woke up with this feeling
I didn't know how to deal with
And so I just decided to myself
I'd hide it to myself
And never talk about it
And didn't I go and shout it
When you walked into my room.
"I think I love you!" (I think I love you)

I think I love you
So what am I so afraid of?
I'm afraid that I'm not sure of
A love there is no cure for
I think I love you
Isn't that what life is made of?
Though it worries me to say
I've never felt this way

Believe me
You really don't have to worry
I only want to make you happy
And if you say,
hey, go away, I will
But I think better still
I ought to stay around and love you
Do you think I have a case?
Let me ask you to your face:
Do you think you love me?
I think I love you!

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