Saturday, May 30, 2009

Show me what I'm looking for





CAROLINA LIAR

Wait, I'm wrong
Should have done better than this
Please, I'll be strong
I'm finding it hard to resist
So show me what I'm looking for

CHORUS
Save me, I'm lost
Oh lord, I've been waiting for you
I'll pay any cost
Save me from being confused
Show me what I'm looking for
Show me what I'm looking for…oh lord

Don't let go
I've wanted this far too long
Mistakes become regrets
I've learned to love abuse
Please show me what I'm looking for

CHORUS
Save me, I'm lost
Oh lord, I've been waiting for you
I'll pay any cost
Save me from being confused
Show me what I'm looking for
Show me what I'm looking for…oh lord

Show me what I'm looking for
Show me what I'm looking for
Show me what I'm looking for

CHORUS
Save me, I'm lost
Oh lord, I've been waiting for you
I'll pay any cost
Just save me from being confused
Wait, I'm wrong
I can't do better than this
I'll pay any cost
Save me from being confused
Show me what I'm looking for
Show me what I'm looking for
Show me what I'm looking for
Show me what I'm looking for…oh lord

Friday, May 29, 2009

Have a Cool Friday All!

My 600th Twitter follower is Sue Reddy at http://twitter.com/reddywriting Thanks For Follow.

This trick is so freaking Awesome!



Thursday, May 28, 2009

Always fun to see.

Rofl theres a few of these that are funny.


Lol am a waist size 34 now from a 48, Took Only 8 Months.
How I do it? Lol easy man, just bury a recently deceased
27 year old marriage, give up on eating, dance with
only women half your age and oh yea walk like 2-4 miles a day.
I need to get down to 150lbs for Bull Ring this June
or my deposit gets halved, lmao screw that.
TIME TO STARVE!

Talk To Me, Dance With Me Lyrics
Artist(Band):Hot Hot Heat

You are my only girl, but you're not my owner girl
You are my only girl, but you're not my owner
You are my only girl, but you're not my owner girl
You are my only girl, but you're not my owner

Talk to me... dance with me here in the spotlight, girl.
Talk to me... dance with me here.
You're the spotlight girl.

So perfect you paint it... yet so manipulated.
So calm and so patient... yet oh so calculated.
So safe and comforting... this doesn't feel like flirting.
So fun I'm distracted... forgot you keep track of it.
So perfect you paint it... yet so manipulated.
So calm and so patient... yet calculated
So perfect you paint it... yet so manipulated.
So calm and so patient... yet calculated.

Talk to me... dance with me here in the spotlight, girl.
Talk to me... dance with me here.

You are my only girl, but you're not my owner girl
You are my only girl, but you're not my owner.
You are my only girl, but you're not my owner girl.
You are my only girl, but you're not my owner .
You are my only girl, but you're not my owner girl.
You are my only girl, but you're not my owner.
You are my only girl, but you're not my owner girl.
You are my only girl.

Talk to me... dance with me here in the spotlight, girl.
Talk to me... dance with me here.
You're the spotlight girl.
Talk to me... dance with me here. You're the spotlight, girl.
Talk to me... dance with me here.


Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Wow Man!!!


Lol When I was broke I used to ask my neighbors for roses for like ones above for "T" Girl when I would date her. I know you shouldn't date a girl when your low on funds, but I just had to hang out with a babe no matter what. Probably be bloody rich by next week or after, who gives a fuck have had several 1000's of dollars sitting in desk drawer just to buy sea horses and corrals before. Lmao I spent thousands on fucking aquatic life. Lol but yet when I needed the cash later for a babe of a lifetime It was too late and I was divorced. I don't give a crap what others say. My wife took me for 27 years and I took her too.

You have no fucking clue how heavy that marriage life is, until you serve that kind of time lol. It was long and for most of the time I was lucky and it was fun. We got two great kids from it. I won't date any chick that thinks kids are baggage. I just wont man its heartless.. "Baggage" to me is everything man. Anyways am blasted on rum why not man. I finally got it all,, the fucking bmw broke down today lmao. Last time on Kanan Road I was doing 130mph around curves LMAO see I told ya I don't die, so fucking what, without "T" girl by my side whats the goddamn Point. It don't matter. I would never take her back after shit we said to each other, I have a thing about manly pride and shit, but goddamn she was a pretty lass, if God ever created one. A voice that could fool bees into thinking it was honey. Eyes that could have killed Gods in their standings. Man I will long for that Goddess like I have never missed a woman before.

She would tell me that on last date she didn't appreciate my tears for her love lost at dinner lmao man , she has never seen my charges for Gods justice cry blood tears in fear. She should have known that my salt was for the purest reasons,but she didn't get. Her only concern was for what other st at tables would think lol. I have stood at the great pyramids and chiseled my children's name and my wife's and mine at the "place of forgotten names" at the foot of the pyramids. I won't be falling in love for a while, but I will always look forward to the chance of it. Being in love is the most fantastic warming happiest experience a Man can know.

Monday, May 25, 2009

Wow Man lets take a break.

Just canceled with Maria. I just can't do it. Its not only unfair to these beautiful women, but at this point I'm wasting their time. I don't feel I can love anyone for awhile after "T" Girl. Dam man, I have tried to forget her for about four weeks now lmao. I just fucking can't lmao man. Lol am sure she doesn't even remember my name anymore, but its ok I'm best a forgotten memory. Have changed allot since I kissed her last. I'm no longer human. I know what I want in life and unfortunately happiness and a family life embedded in loving bliss is not an option. I now scour flop houses and out placement services looking for those whose guilt outweighs their need to breathe.

I no longer turn the other way when I see injustice, nor do I weigh the consequences of my actions and what they deliver to my persona. I have seen things that should never have been seen and my eyes are fully operational. I can see all the evil around me and how Good fights it everyday frozen forever in that moment of realization that the fight will never end. Gawd how I love it man. I answer to no man. I belong never again to any woman. I have taught my spawn how to defend and strike back at any human foolish enough to mock Gods words and they're own safety. This blog will be the only proof that I ever existed, its photos a self confessional of a mans quest to alter a present course that was best left to others.


I Think I Love You
The Partridge Family

I'm sleeping

And right in the middle of a good dream
like all at once I wake up
From something that keeps knocking at my brain
Before I go insane
I hold my pillow to my head
And spring up in my bed
Screaming out the words I dread:
"I think I love you!" (I think I love you)

This morning, I woke up with this feeling
I didn't know how to deal with
And so I just decided to myself
I'd hide it to myself
And never talk about it
And didn't I go and shout it
When you walked into my room.
"I think I love you!" (I think I love you)

I think I love you
So what am I so afraid of?
I'm afraid that I'm not sure of
A love there is no cure for
I think I love you
Isn't that what life is made of?
Though it worries me to say
I've never felt this way

Believe me
You really don't have to worry
I only want to make you happy
And if you say,
hey, go away, I will
But I think better still
I ought to stay around and love you
Do you think I have a case?
Let me ask you to your face:
Do you think you love me?
I think I love you!

Sunday, May 24, 2009

The Thing is..


So am talking with Ex-wife last night, its a weird kinda of monthly status talk of where we our at lives, trippy man. Just months ago we were literally trying to kill each other on paper and in real life. Yet now its like the most surreal deep relationship I'll ever know. Twenty seven years of marriage, 24 hours together man, that's a heap of fucking time. Two kids and lots of memories man, uncountable. I told her my last try at happiness went South. She gives me the old keep up the chin speech and couple hours later I get a call from "Maria". I would have cheated on my wife for Maria. I know she ran around with my wife, when wifey probably cheated on me, but I'm the kind of miserable fuck that keeps my word to God.

Maria is like wow man, 5'10 totally leggy blond, green blueish lagoon colored eyes man. She was raised in New Hampshire and a Harvard graduate, but you would never know it from the way she pitched a softball at little league tryouts some time ago and cursed out the opposing coach. A peach fuzzy complexion, with eyelashes that could touch the clouds. Dam man when we locked eyes years ago on stairs of my hill house, we got closer step by step on staircase, until I stopped myself two inches from her lips, when her kid almost fell over with my Son wrestling on steps, I came to my senses, but the look of sadness and love she gave me as I stepped backwards away from her, I never forgot.

Maria called me today and told me that my ex-wife called her just now and gave her my number. I and Maria go out on Wednesday, lol freaking Wednesdays man, don't even get me started on them. This woman has traveled all over the world too and to tell the truth, right now I need a woman that can ride with me at full throttle man. Just a Girlfriend that says," ok baby lets bag em and tag em". To my ex-wife lol no matter what happens with Maria, Thanks Babe we had a good life lol. ^_-

Saturday, May 23, 2009

Meow...


Update: I canceled with sweet young honey after Maria called. Figure its like what the character Joker said in batman movie regarding a mad dog chasing a car. I wouldn't know what to do with a 30 year old girl if I caught her?
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So this Memorial weekend was going to be a just a Hell spawned memory zombie emotional brain fuck fest to the 10th* power. Until it hit me like a ton of bricks. It was like "T" Girl said would happen. An Epiphany blasted itself through my being. Why am I letting American social culture dictate my life's outcome. Whose says I have to date a 40-55 year old woman? Its not done in Rome Italy, so why should I live by such a young Nation's rigid view on intangible love, want of or lack of, here? Can't leave to Rome at this moment, but I so do need a sweet woman by my side. I can't exist without being vested in an all consuming relationship with a woman, its how I'm wired. Last night I went hunting for a young woman in a club and I caught her. We danced and laughed ,talked for hours. She's Japanese and 28, in other words I'll be 20 years older than her in June. Going out again Monday to Coast. Her smile makes her eyes explode with such a intense light and happiness. What hit me hard about her as we danced, was when she reached out and caressed one of my bruises on my face, see I've been in a couple scrapes lately and well been taking a few shots in the process. She asked if it hurt, I smiled and winked a a convincing at least I thought "no". She smiled, hugged me and whispered you remind me of an "Alley cat". Today I been tripping bout her smiling comment, alley cat...Meow. lmao

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Have to Party just have to.

Figure after grand opening of puesto this Friday, I'll hit Chayas or Sparks for some celebratory martini's lol

Halo lyrics
Songwriters: Bogart, Evan Kidd; Knowles, Beyonce Gisselle; Tedder, Ryan Benjamin; Remember those walls I built
Well, baby they're tumbling down
And they didn't even put up a fight
They didn't even make up a sound

I found a way to let you in
But I never really had a doubt
Standing in the light of your halo
I got my angel now

It's like I've been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin'
It's the risk that I'm takin'
I ain't never gonna shut you out

Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace

You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away

I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo

Hit me like a ray of sun
Burning through my darkest night
You're the only one that I want
Think I'm addicted to your light

I swore I'd never fall again
But this don't even feel like falling
Gravity can't forget
To pull me back to the ground again

Feels like I've been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin'
The risk that I'm takin'
I'm never gonna shut you out

Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace

You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away

I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo

I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
Halo, halo

Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace

You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away

I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo

I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo

Am po'ed so I tend to slap death a few times over her.


You learn to look for the signs and follow your heart and gut. Wow man love lost is worse than love found yes?

If your gone by matchbox 20
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I think I've already lost you
I think you're already gone
I think I'm finally scared now
You think I'm weak - but I think you're wrong
I think you're already leaving
Feels like your hand is on the door
I thought this place was an empire
But now I'm relaxed - I can't be sure

I think you're so mean - I think we should try
I think I could need - this in my life
I think I'm just scared - I think too much
I know this is wrong it's a problem I'm dealing

If you're gone - maybe it's time to go home
There's an awful lot of breathing room
But I can hardly move
If you're gone - baby you need to come home
Cuz there's a little bit of something me
In everything in you

I bet you're hard to get over
I bet the room just won't shine
I bet my hands I can stay here
I bet you need - more than you mind

I think you're so mean - I think we should try
I think I could need - this in my life
I think I'm just scared - that I know too much
I can't relate and that's a problem I'm feeling

If you're gone - maybe it's time to go home
There's an awful lot of breathing room
But I can hardly move
If you're gone - baby you need to come home
Cuz there's a little bit of something me
In everything in you

I think you're so mean - I think we should try
I think I could need - this in my life
I think I'm just scared - do I talk too much
I know this is wrong it's a problem I'm dealing

If you're gone - maybe it's time to go home
There's an awful lot of breathing room
But I can hardly move
If you're gone - baby you need to come home
Cuz there's a little bit of something me
In everything in you

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

I'm Really Free Now.

Barbara Ruben is my 500th Twitter Follower :)
http://twitter.com/xobellaxo13
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Yesterday on coldwater canyon couple of "milf's?" I prefer the phrase incredibly beautiful sexy mature women, edged up to me in a Viper and and asked me how, "I'm driving so fast around curves with no hands on my steering wheel"?.. LMAO man!! I smiled, lowered my voice all husky like and said, "guess"? ROFL they busted up, winked and before they could go on. I just sped off. Truth is I use my knees. A good friend taught me how to do it mainly to free up my paws for lock and load reasons, but sometimes when I drove "T" Girl around town. I would drive hands free. I never knew if it got her nervous, heck sometimes she would nap while I did it. Also comes in handy for sexier reasons with a special girl!

Was married for forever man 27 years last April. The Court said my Divorce should be final this week lol man. Fell in love on sight with a dreamboat of a babe two months ago and it just fizzled out, my fault really as I can be a real asshole, its my nature. Yet when this loveboat sank, it hurt more than my marriage breakup. So what now? look for a new girlfriend, lover or casual sex buddy? LOL no man!! This time what I truly desire is a dance partner for swing dance. If it leads to love or whatever fine, but right now in my life I need to dance my blues away. Had to move my payments back by a few weeks. I had promised homeless shelter some food from restaurant, figured it be running by now and since it isn't. I threw in cash instead, most of what I had is now gone lol man. There went 700 for surfboard at val surf and a killer deal on a one piece wetsuit 165 list goes on lol.. Last night as I spent a couple hours payback duty perched on a Synagogue roof, lol I like busting Nazi taggers,thugs, etc. I thought that a guy like me will never know peace or true love. To begin with, am cold blooded so there went any chance of warming up to a proper girl, like last beauty I was involved with.

I always fuck up and say wrong things or respond to quickly, before thinking about her feelings. I expect too much maybe and I demand nothing short but a persons best. "T" Girl was right, I'm too fucking mean and heartless to ever truly understand a good decent woman. I was married to the wrong one for such a long time its now hopeless for me to ever be the right guy for any Dame again. Yet I 'm one hell of a dancer though. So am going to dance my life away. During day I'll work my ass off running restaurant, at night search for Evil, destroy it and on weekends dance with the prettiest Women on this earth. <---(Mid-Life Crisis?) LMAO YA THINK? ROFL!!!!!! Wait until you see the pics I post here on this blog, when I'm in the sanctuary of Vatican airlines on the way to Rome ..Ciao..

Monday, May 18, 2009

Terror of the dark feeds me

"People" you meet walking between 1:30 am-5:30 are the most interesting you'll ever survive.

Sunday, May 17, 2009

Guess I aint alone either!

Well so I get to chatsworth figured, I was going to die, after all I am or think I'm immortal, but its not like an Angel or a big booming voice ever told me I was. I just assumed it as I just don't die. So I was thinking on way how many there would be there and how was I supposed to get past the lookouts. My skills are more for one on one, not a cult raider. Got there and the party had already started, monsters running all over screaming the sweet song of desperation as death closed in. The baby's wailing was unbearably loud man. I could see my colleagues totally consumed by the lust of God's vengeance.

I jumped out and instead of diving into the fray, lmao I started to dance rofl!!!!!!! I easesd sword out of trunk all slow like. Everything was just so fucking much in slow motion. Started to dance over to first fucker, he tried hacking me with some ax or shit. He became maggot food, but I could still hear the baby crying. I tore ass over to the sacrifice altar of the beast. There was the little baby all tied up and doused in gasoline. All I remember later is dropping baby, alive and well off at ER in area and talking to my friends later at place of Reunion. I spoke to a few regarding what the pain of being alone meant. A few told me that my life would be allot easier if I just gave up on ever having a woman to trust or fully love ever again. Basically the consensus was, have a ball just fucking around, give up on true love and enjoy the earthly pleasures and rewards in exchange for an eternal soul damned in the name of the Innocent. Kinda sucks as a trade off if you think of it from my side,but Lol fine. Found out that I get to travel for Free to Italy whenever I want. That was a huge ass surprise. Meaning I could leave tomorrow, all I have to do is pay for my own room and food. Its just $1000.00-2,000.00 savings, but a savings nevertheless.

Saturday, May 16, 2009

What I'm into!



Kingston
Let’s Go
Hey, hey, hey
Red One
Hey Hey

Shawty got that super thing
hotter than the sun
Never ??
Got me soon as I walked in the door
My ??
The way she dropped it low ??
Make me wanna spend my money on her
she get it pop lock drop it

Shawty go line fire
Somebody call 911
shawty fire burning, fire burning,
on the dance floor whoaaaa
I got to cool down
she gotta ?? the roof down to the dance floor
Shawty fire burning, fire burning, on the dance floor
Shawty fire burning, fire burning, on the dance floor
she fire burning, fire burning, on the dance floor
Shawty fire burning, fire burning, on the dance floor

Fire burning, fire burning

My Heart is Black again..finally :)

I FUCKING DID IT!!!!!!!!!!! Mulholland canyon 85 man!!!!!! We took it from wrightwood and baby we tore a new asshole through the mountain until near laurel. I never have known such an exhilaration as wheels went off road and we hung in air. Slide outs around some corner near laurel and right into oncoming traffic. Man my blood went cold as I jagged in and out of one way train of rushing sedans and we went over side, met up with the fucker as he drafted around some oaks, figured front of my baby was crushed now,but my BMW beauty smiled, blinked and we gunned it over dude and down to laurel. Little bitch thought he give me slip and cut into a street off laurel lol man, please???? Well I just got back from leaving him well adjusted at Hollywood bowl. He'll keep and will answer for his sins later tonight. Right now am getting a fucking real good buzz on and heading off to chatsworth park back of boulders near old train tracks. If you know where that is, I suggest you don't go there for a couple hours lmao shit ain't gonna be pretty. Seems some kind of Nobie satanic birthday party is going on. Heheh wait until they get a look at me LMAO!!!!!!!! Today instead of buying some samurai sword for an ex girl friend's kid. I went to little Tokyo and bought myself a nice "Ginseng" sword!!!!! ROFL!!!!!!!!!! Lets see it what it can do?

Friday, May 15, 2009

Beggin, beggin you

Am 47 and before I met "T" Girl and she sang to me in my kitchen. I never knew one dam lyric or even listened to them on radio, hell I don't even know all the words in Yankee doodle dandy.
Now I love lyrics and trip out on how really close to home they hit. Tonight after work I put on my headphones and made ready to dance to this song all night in my bedroom LOL!

Oooooh-
Put your loving hand out, baby
I'm beggin

Beggin, beggin you
Put your loving hand out baby
Beggin, beggin you
Put your loving hand out darlin

Ridin high, when I was king
Played it hard and fast, cause I had everything
Walked away, won me then
But easy come and easy go
And it would end

[Yosef Wolde-Mariam]

[Tshawe Baqwa:]
Beggin, beggin you
Put your loving hand out, baby
Beggin, beggin you
Put your loving hand out darlin

[Yosef Wolde-Mariam:]
I need you, (yeeah) to understand
Tried so hard
To be your man
The kind of man you want in the end
Only then can I begin to live again

[Tshawe Baqwa:]
An empty shell
I used to be
Shadow of my life
Was hangin over me

A broken man
Without a throne
Won't even stand the devils dance
To win my soul

[Yosef Wolde-Mariam]

[Tshawe Baqwa:]
Beggin, beggin you
Put your loving hand out, baby
Beggin, beggin you
Put your loving hand out darlin

[Yosef Wolde-Mariam:]
I'm fighting hard
To hold my own
No, I just can't make it
All alone

I'm holdin on
I can't fall back
Now that big brass ring
Is a shade of black

[Tshawe Baqwa:]
Beggin, beggin you
Put your loving hand out, baby
Beggin, beggin you
Put your loving hand out darlin

Beggin, beggin you
Put your loving hand out, baby
Beggin, beggin you
Put your loving hand out darlin

Beggin, beggin you
Put your loving hand out, baby
Beggin, beggin you
Put your loving hand out darlin

Thanks Man!




Day before yesterday after Lexus race, Efrain told me my beemer had turbo in gas pedal apparently he was right !! So am taking sunset Thursday from PCH and this time I pull up to a Mercedes sedan, some Arab punk in it, daddy's car. I wave a Benny at dude, yell at him ,"who ever gets first to the Brentwood Inn," he yells back, "old man you'll get a stroke" and I flashed and said, your Mom Didn't say that, wtf Son? he got pissed and off we flew. I expected sunset at that hour to be a little jacked, lmao man it was clean bro. We were doing 70's around 30 curves and we both were laughing and smiling at each other as we passed our asses. He was going to lose, he was stopping for red lights, showed the little punk on "the fly"lol how to go through lights without wrecking or others and the race then got heavy. I had Sandy's Platters tape on and man the tires were screaming the kid was sweating and birds were flying all over. Time slowed as we hit bentwood crest and the kid slammed on brakes to let a post office van go through lol man I left that little van spinning and tore through lights. Cars were blaring horns as we tore into stopped lanes, swerving around to opposite lanes and the kid sideswiped a mailbox and came to a stop at some gas station. I beat the little punk. Had Ex-Wife skiptrace his plates as I drove on 405 freeway, by time I got home. I had emailed him pic of Bentwood Inn (pic above) along with address where to send 100 bucks.

lmao yea I know immature and shit, but man I think I have returned from the dead and something wicked is coming my way. Tonight I said bye to her and well the world melted in front of me, yea man I was expecting and ready for it but lol still man. Well I Surfed today I think pics came out am still going through them, note to people the blackberry pearl sucks as a camera.

Guys have certain things about women they need or must have. Some dudes like legs,boobs,etc you get the drift..me I like them drop dead beautiful. Am a sucker for a pretty Dame man. Well that's for another post, right now am cleaning up, lol did rounds tonight, was a little perturbed and since nobody will be here at my apt again, lol keyboard is going to be a little messy ROFL!!

Thursday, May 14, 2009

Wow Freedom!


Lol man just finished with Manny he's down there waiting for me. Am going Surfing right now!!!!!!! LMAO!!! Last time I made love to a 5 footer I was 16..ROFL that's what she said!!!! omg lollll!!!! Anyways I was like thinking this morning like 6am lol wtf man your free man. No more wife or kids. You paid them off and you no longer answer to anyone. Sandy was right its like Men get to start over. Kind of unfair but that's life right and am sure theres a trade off. I know when I hit a board again I'll be lost in it. I rode for 3 years, it was hot, really hot at the end. Then one day I got a 5 day earache form water infection and I quit temporarily. That turned into a 30 year break LOL. Was weird running into my first "posse" lol! We were just bunch of dudes back then trying to score women and live the life at the beach, some buffed out, others walked, partied or chased bikinis, we surfed, boring if you like, but I had fun and so did others. Just checked at travel agency they offer surfer tours, best points and beaches, hehe Australia wins with most deadly points. Just put down a deposit on Sydney for July lol screw Rome. Am surfing the Great Barrier Reef!! Ok Heading to Malibu hope I can get some slug or babe to take pic of me diving into sand buffet lmao.

Lol Did you see how he fell off cliff?

Wow how it feels to move on. Its like a force pulls you away from something that was so intense and so comforting you thought could never end or dim. What I want in my life right now is to take over and absorb a woman to her fullest, call it weird how the fuck do I know. Its what I do. To be all for that woman. To be there for her in every way to expect her desire, to love me and be part of decisions of great magnitude. To expect security in all aspects of her life from parking her car to her health. In short for me to act like timber wolf and scare off a approaching grizzly. I know this is as to be true for when I was married anytime an instance of personal danger stuck at us. It was mine and always my action that stood between my family. I am who the fuck I am and I make no apologies for not negotiating Evil away, its just easier to kill it.

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Wow Music nowadays wow!


Advantage being immortal is that being a asshole is so effortless. After all what can you possibly have to fear anymore right? Lol yea you feel painful shit like a broken heart but not even that will kill you. Example today some old man with his young girl dared to race me for pinks on PCH in Malibu lol the little man had some kind of Lexus coupe vs my BMW lol when I beat him. I just sped off and yea I flicked him off. I had bet him my pink slip for his girl Friend. Lol what did he think that the girl would just jump in my car like a fucking prize? lmao man. Had a great time in Malibu, met some friends from 30 years ago man and they still fit in their "turtles" (wetsuits) WTF MAN!!! How can they freaking fit in that shit!! Told them how I ate pounds of sand at north shore in Hawaii, we busted up over Mario's near attack climbing hill to get to north shore instead of paying the little tram to take you there. Flabby has been skating waves in Australia and told us bout some grizzly waves that make you pee when you see little crested hump turn into some movie kind of a wave lol.

I was this close from humping a board and surfing again man. Lol am so old now at 47 I was like dudes its so fucking cold man. They were like bro its 70-80 at sand. I wasn't scared lol man I used to live straddling a board for 3 years it was I just ain't at that place anymore. I ate a small dinner at beachcomber (min is like $16.95 lol bastards) that used to be Alice's on the Malibu Pier. Saw an apt for a 2 bedroom 1 bath right before KFC like a a mile or 2 on pch. I will so take it if I can man. Would love just fucking love to love at Malibu man. Its so commercial but easy access to cleaner beach and close to LA if you know the special cuts. Lots of changes occurring within me really freaky ones. I love talking to people now man. love knowing peoples story and what the heck they are doing at this particular moment that would place them in front of me. Threes a reason to every random moment in your daily life. Its not an accident or just happened shit. It was all figured out and predefined, you just don't know how, why or when.



[Intro - T-Pain]
Mmmmmmmm
Let me talk to 'em
Let me talk to 'em
Mmmmmmm
Let me talk to 'em
C'mon!

Chorus
Shawty had them apple bottom jeans (jeans)
Boots with the fur (with the fur)
The whole club was looking at her
She hit the floor (she hit the floor)
Next thing you know
Shawty got low, low, low, low, low, low, low, low
Them baggy sweat pants
And the Reebok's with the straps (with the straps)
She turned around and gave that big booty a smack (hey)
She hit the floor (she hit the floor)
Next thing you know
Shawty got low, low, low, low, low, low, low, low

[Flo-Rida]
I ain't never seen something that'll make me go
This crazy all night spending my doe
Had the million dollar vibe and a body to go
Them birthday cakes they stole the show
So sexual
She was flexible professional
Drinking X&O
Hold up, wait a minute, do I see what I think? Whoa
Did her thing seen shawty get low
Ain't the same when it's up that close
Make it rain I'm making it snow
Work the pole I gotta bank roll
I'm gonna say that I prefer the no clothes
I'm in to that I love women exposed
She threw it back at me I gave her mo
Cash ain't a problem I know where it go

Chorus
Shawty had them apple bottom jeans (jeans)
Boots with the fur (with the fur)
The whole club was looking at her
She hit the floor (she hit the floor)
Next thing you know
Shawty got low, low, low, low, low, low, low, low
Them baggy sweat pants
And the Reebok's with the straps (with the straps)
She turned around and gave that big booty a smack (hey)
She hit the floor (she hit the floor)
Next thing you know
Shawty got low, low, low, low, low, low, low, low
[Flo-Rida]
Hey shawty what I gotta do to get you home
My jeans filled with guap and they're ready for showing
Cadillacs laid back for the sexy grown
Patron on the rocks that'll make you moan
One stack (come on), two stacks (come on), three stacks (come on)
Now that's three grand
What you think I'm playing baby girl I'm the man
I'm dealing rubber bands
That's when I threw her legs on my shoulders
I knew it was over
That heny and Cola got me like a soldier
She ready for Rover, I couldn't control her
So lucky on me I was just like clover
Shawty was hot like a toaster
Sorry but I had to fold her
Like a pornography poster
She showed her

Chorus
Shawty had them apple bottom jeans (jeans)
Boots with the fur (with the fur)
The whole club was looking at her
She hit the floor (she hit the floor)
Next thing you know
Shawty got low, low, low, low, low, low, low, low
Them baggy sweat pants
And the Reebok's with the straps (with the straps)
She turned around and gave that big booty a smack (hey)
She hit the floor (she hit the floor)
Next thing you know
Shawty got low, low, low, low, low, low, low, low

[Flo-Rida]
Whoa shawty yeah she was worth the money
Little mama took my cash
And I ain't want it back
The way she bent that back
Got all them paper stacks
Tattoo above her crack
I had to handle that
I was zoned in sexy woman
Let me show it make me want it
Two in the morning I'm zoned in
Them rosee bottles foaming
She wouldn't stop
Made it drop
Shawty dipped that pop and lock
Had to break her off that guap
Gal was fine just like my glock

Chorus
Shawty had them apple bottom jeans (jeans)
Boots with the fur (with the fur)
The whole club was looking at her
She hit the floor (she hit the floor)
Next thing you know
Shawty got low, low, low, low, low, low, low, low
Them baggy sweat pants
And the Reebok's with the straps (with the straps)
She turned around and gave that big booty a smack (hey)
She hit the floor (she hit the floor)
Next thing you know
Shawty got low, low, low, low, low, low, low, low

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Romance Advice...

Wow I just remembered my first date with Sandy and man you could stab me in the eye with a fork and it would hurt less than past couple weeks. Yet being what I am I rise from this, as I have from all that has ever tried to stop me from Heavens Gate. I will fight my way there and be judged by the Commandments I so easily defiled for the sake of my fellow man, acts of bravery for those that could not. I will not fail my Order.
Women and Children First and Always.
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LOL man I always do the dumbest things on a date...sigh
sound like good info below :)


Women’s Top Ten Favorite Conversation Topics 1. Hopes and aspirations
2. Hobbies/interests in general
3. Music
4. Dreams
5. Romance
6. Friends
7. Travel
8. Vacations
9. Movies
10. Entertainment




Women’s Top Ten Least Favorite Conversation Topics 1. Politics
2. Other dates
3. Past relationships
4. Science fiction
5. Religion
6. Celebrities
7. Science
8. Antiques
9. Money
10. History

Women’s Top Ten Date Picks 1. Restaurant
2. Taking a romantic walk
3. Park
4. Coffee shop
5. Live music
6. Comedy Club
7. Zoo
8. Bowling or Playing Pool
9. Amusement Park
10. Movies
Top Ten Restaurant Types for a Date 1. Casual dinner
2. Pub
3. Retro bar with live music
4. French cuisine
5. Ethnic
6. Pizza place
7. Western
8. Salad bar
9. Sushi bar
10. Family dinner


Women’s Top Ten Favorite Ways to Have Someone Flirt with Them 1. Talks about things she likes or dislikes, making comments and showing interest
2. Displays concern for her, her feelings and well-being
3. Shares jokes or amusing anecdotes with her
4. Compliments her on her screen name, attitude, personality and appearance
5. Sends her special/cute email messages
6. Makes an effort to contact her in some form most every day
7. Sends instant messages when she and you are online at the same time
8. Discusses seriously the traits she desires in a partner
9. Shows her your daring or mischievous side
10. Emails her greeting cards, gifts, pictures songs or fun attachments

Monday, May 11, 2009

She Made the PAPERS!


Congratulations to Twitters Prettiest Tweeter! Shes Big Time! :)

From San Diego News Network.
Tom Blair is an SDNN columnist.

ENTRE NEWS:
Not that it’s a surprise, it just came sooner than I would have imagined: “From Chicago to Coronado - a Twitter Soap Opera Written in 140-Word Sound Bytes.” The plot line: A culturally challenged Chicago to Coronado transplant-Prada-heeled, agency CEO, Economic Club of Chicago member is forced into flip-flops and a life among Navy SEALs. Creator Kirsten Osolind says all Tweeters are encouraged to contribute their own 140-word “bytes” of the story by logging on to twitter.com/kirsteno and following directions. . .

Life runs on huh.


Right Now lyrics

Songwriters: Thiam, Aliaune; It's been so long
That I haven't seen your face
I'm tryna be strong
But the strength I have is washing away

It wont be long
Before I get you by my side
And just hold you, tease you, squeeze you
Tell you what's been on my mind

I wanna make up right now, na na
I wanna make up right now, na na
Wish we never broke up right now, na na
We need to link up right now, na na

I wanna make up right now, na na
I wanna make up right now, na na
Wish we never broke up right now, na na
We need to link up right now, na na

Girl I know mistakes were made between us two
And we show our eyes that night
Even said somethings weren't true
Why'd you go and haven't seen my girl since then
Why can't it be the way it was?
Cos you were my homie, lover and friend

I wanna make up right now, na na
I wanna make up right now, na na
Wish we never broke up right now, na na
We need to link up right now, na na

I wanna make up right now, na na
I wanna make up right now, na na
Wish we never broke up right now, na na
We need to link up right now, na na

I can't lie
I miss you much
Watching everyday that goes by
I miss you much
Until I get you back I'm gonna try
Yes I miss you much
You are the apple of my eye
Girl I miss you much

I miss you much
I can't lie
I miss you much
Watching everyday that goes by
I miss you much
Until I get you back I'm gonna try
Yes I miss you much
You are the apple of my eye
Girl I miss you much
I miss you much

I wanna make up right now, na na
I wanna make up right now, na na
Wish we never broke up right now, na na
We need to link up right now, na na

I wanna make up right now, na na
I wanna make up right now, na na
Wish we never broke up right now, na na
We need to link up right now, na na

I want you to fly with me
Want you to fly
I miss how you lie with me
Miss how you lie
Just wish you could dine with me
Wish you could dine
One that would grind with me
One that would grind with me

I want you to fly with me
Want you to fly
I miss how you lie with me
Miss how you lie
Just wish you could dine with me
Wish you could dine
One that would grind with me
One that would grind

I wanna make up right now, na na
I wanna make up right now, na na
Wish we never broke up right now, na na
We need to link up right now, na na

I wanna make up right now, na na
I wanna make up right now, na na
Wish we never broke up right now, na na
We need to link up right now, na na

Saturday, May 9, 2009

Long way overdue



Last night was a mind blower. What was done was long way overdue and was righteous in everyway. As I did my rounds, for now this town becomes mine and falls under my care. Later when I move to Italy things will change. I thought about "T" Girl a lot and how I messed up between us, yea am sure I could find things to lay at her dainty feet, but not only would it be minimal it would be stupid to even try to blame anybody else but me. I guess all these years married to my Ex wife, I was so sure I was in love with my Ex but apparently not man. From the minute I walked out of my house to the moment the entry for judgment of dissolution was filed, I have not felt even close to the incredible loss I feel for "T" Girl. Its not like I'm hot looking or all super stared out, but I'm the real fucking thing and that shit counts allot to the right Dames.

shes massively beautiful, the kind of beauty that makes a Noble, but naive knight like myself lose all his self composure and dignity, lmao man how did I get here. Well dear reader watch me crawl out of these depths and take note sir or madam that Man especially this man never gives up or surrenders. This time my worst enemy was myself and last night I defeated me lol. Last night I unfurled my leathery cracked wings and fought again in His name. After that, touched base at the club and danced in a corner of packed dance floor by myself. Sometimes I would dance with a young babe, but mostly I just wanted to be alone and just dance the pain away. Only Person alive that has ever seen me dance the pain is "T" Girl. LMAO I must look dumb doing it, but that's how I handle emotional pain man lmao.

Today I woke with purpose and a decent and loving heart. I wrote her a goodbye email switched my cell to another provider closed off my email and let her go. Not to do so would have been cruel for I have injured her most sweet and delicate heart, and it stops Now!

Into the distance, a ribbon of black
Stretched to the point of no turning back
A flight of fancy
on a windswept field
Standing alone my senses reeled
A fatal attraction holding me fast, how
Can I escape this irresistible grasp?

Cant keep my eyes from the circling skies
Tongue-tied and twisted just an earth-bound misfit, i

Ice is forming on the tips of my wings
Unheeded warnings, I thought I thought of everything
No navigator to guide my way home
Unladened, empty and turned to stone

A soul in tension thats learning to fly
Condition grounded but determined to try
Cant keep my eyes from the circling skies
Tongue-tied and twisted just an earth-bound misfit, i

Friction lock - set.
Mixture - rich
Propellers - fully forward
Flaps - set - 10 degrees
Engine gauges and suction - check

Mixture set to maximum percent - recheck
Flight instruments...
Altimeters - check both
(garbled word) - on
Navigation lights - on
Strobes - on
(to tower): confirm 3-8-echo ready for departure
(tower): hello again, this is now 129.4
(to tower): 129.4. its to go.
(tower): you may commence your takeoff, winds over 10 knots.
(to tower): 3-8-echo
Easy on the brakes. take it easy. its gonna roll this time.
Just hand the power gradually, and it...

Above the planet on a wing and a prayer,
My grubby halo, a vapour trail in the empty air,
Across the clouds I see my shadow fly
Out of the corner of my watering eye
A dream unthreatened by the morning light
Could blow this soul right through the roof of the night

Theres no sensation to compare with this
Suspended animation, a state of bliss
Cant keep my eyes from the circling skies
Tongue-tied and twisted just an earth-bound misfit,

Thursday, May 7, 2009



Black dress with the tights underneath,
I got the breath of the last cigarette on my teeth,
And shes an actress (actress),
But she ain't got no need.
Shes got money from her parents in a trust fund back east.
T-t-t-tongues always pressed to your cheeks,
While my tongue is on the inside of some other girls teeth,
T-tell your boyfriend if he says hes got beef,
That I'm a vegetarian and I ain't fucking scared of him.

She wants to touch me (Woah),
She wants to love me (Woah),
She'll never leave me (Woah, woah, oh, oh),
Don't trust a ho,
Never trust a ho,
Won't trust a ho,
Won't trust me.

X's on the back of your hands,
Wash them in the bathroom to drink like the bands.
And your setlist (setlist),
You stole off the stage,
Had red and purple lipstick all over the page.
B-b-b-bruises cover your arms,
Shaking in the fingers with the bottle in your palm.
And the best is (best is),
No one knows who you are,
Just another girl alone at the bar.

She wants to touch me (Woah),
She wants to love me (Woah),
She'll never leave me (Woah, woah, oh, oh),
Don't trust a ho,
Never trust a ho,
Won't trust a ho,
Won't trust me.

Shush girl shut your lips,
Do the Hellen Keller and talk with your hips.
I said, Shush girl shut your lips,
Do the Hellen Keller and talk with your hips.
I said, Shush girl shut your lips,
Do the Hellen Keller and talk with your hips.

Woah, woah, woah...

She wants to touch me (Woah),
She wants to love me (Woah),
She'll never leave me (Woah, woah, oh, oh),
Don't trust a ho,
Never trust a ho,
Won't trust a ho,
Won't trust me

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

Dance the Pain Away.


All I want to do now is head off to Italy as soon as I can. I just want a couple weeks to get over her. I know I'll find an Italian princess there. lmao man this last girl wow man she could make me laugh at myself she dared and only she could have dared to say the things to me that had me on floor nightly grabbing my sides. Lmao man she made me laugh like no other Godess ever h as. I loved you Doll so fucking hard and I know I'll always have a mad easy spot for you in anything you may need. I loved everything about your from your hair to your delicate toes. LoL MAN thanks for letting me know what love at first sight felt l ike and what a heartache so dangerously feels like. Christ sake man let me get ruin over 10000000 times by a bus before I feel what it feels to lose a woman like you Doll.
Please Don't Leave Me Lyrics
Pink

Da da da da, da da da da
Da da da da-da da

I don't know if I can yell any louder
How many time have I kicked you outta here?
Or said something insulting?
da da da da-da
I can be so mean when I wanna be
I am capable of really anything
I can cut you into pieces
When my heart is....broken

Da da da-da da
Please don't leave me
Please don't leave me
I always say how I don't need you
But it's always gonna come right back to this
Please, don't leave me

How did I become so obnoxious?
What is it with you that makes me act like this?
I've never been this nasty
Can't you tell that this is all just a contest?
The one that wins will be the one that hits the hardest
But baby I don't mean it
I mean it, I promise

Da da da-da da
Please don't leave me
Da da da-da da
Please don't leave me
Da da da-da da
I always say how I don't need you
But it's always gonna come right back to this
Please, don't leave me
[Please Don't Leave Me Lyrics On http://www.elyricsworld.com/ ]
I forgot to say out loud how beautiful you really are to me
I can't be without, you're my perfect little punching bag
And I need you, I'm sorry.

Da da da da, da da da da
da da da da-da da
Please, please don't leave me

Baby please don't leave me
No, don't leave me
Please don't leave me no no no
You say I don't need you but it's always gonna come right back,
It's gonna come right back to this.
Please, don't leave me.
No.
No, don't leave me
Please don't leave me, oh no no no.
I always say how I don't need you
But it's always gonna come right back to this

Please don't leave me
Please don't leave me


Monday, May 4, 2009

Pardon me Ms..

Funny thing I didn't know love would hurt like this. Never have had heartache before lol wow the shit hurts in a painful way man. I mean if your kid is bummed you hurt if your wife or mate hurts so do you,but to feel all busted up when you break up with a girl of a lifetime wow man that shit is fucking harsh in the strongest terms lmao man. At least I tried to rationlize how I had a great time with her on so many levels and that we both got what we wanted or thought wanted, thing is I fell in love with the Dame. I sang with a live band this weekend at skinnys in noho it was cool man. Lol man karoke is kinda silly but with a live band doing the music its a drunks dudes dream come true.
Sang bad to the bone and dude it was fucking magic rofl for at least me. I was looking at tours a an hour ago and for some reason middle eastern countries looking good. LMAO maybe am like dam chicks will do what we men say or off with thier heads.. lol man that sucks and any religion advocating that kind of caveman shit should be banned. So as a Cathoilic I give the finger to Islam always and forever. Dalles, Texas, Hollywood..............

Saturday, May 2, 2009

Live it Man!

lol bro my ex wife wants me back and lol no man that shit ain't ever gonna happen man. I was married to the woman for 27 years I think I get it now lmao!!!!!!!!!!! Anyways my business is taking off and the women are flourishing as well. I like dating meeting new babes and listening to Their stuff and lives. Heavy shit never existed than a woman's tales about living the life. I like moms especially the 30 to 40 crowd man. They have their stuff together and gawdam they are a sexy and a fucked up sexually bunch. I never been with more sexually expressive women than the 30-40 class of babes. They love it all and dam man it so rocks. I love dancing with them on floor and later making love and dinning with them . I buried my Dad when he moved on and you only got one fucking life so use it man. I held him as he died and Ill never forget it never man One thing is holding a piece of shit that deserved to die holding him just to see his light pass on but another is holding your Father die and move on in your arms. an unforgettable experience. So man what you gonna do? let beautiful women dictate your life or have your life dedicated to beautiful women and doing what your heart commands is the the right thing to do?

Friday, May 1, 2009

I said gooddbye.

Yea I said goodbye and moved on to new loves and adventures, Men are born to die and that's the way it is. Today as I was on date with a hot pretty lass all I could think was how fun it was to be married, to really belong to somebody. Yea am looking for a girl to settle down with. I'll find her, doubt it'll be here but am sure I'll find her in Italy this year or next year.