Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Toes Tingling = Good

Yawn....scratch...smells coffee and smiles :) New Day, New Dollar, New ?

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Be Right Back.

Well what a day huh? Ran all over and got all my competitors prices, filed some closure induced papers in an old personal family law case. Such brings to an end a long and well lived chapter in my past. So many unknown and reborn feelings surfacing now. This weekend I go empire building, be it without a Queen by my side. Was sad today when I left the court after filing some final shit and more especially after talking to the "T" girl and getting blown off and not the good blown off either man. Yea as I drove to my place I could have thought of all that I lost in the future, instead I chose to think of what a glorious and mind numbing couple months its been with "T" Girl. Ive done a lot of bad things and you could try to spend resources and manpower and never, ever convict me of a gawdam thing, heh heh cool huh.

Just like I can bounce around like a tin can under a tour bus for a few blocks with not a care in the world so can evidence and witness be counted to effect against me not. Thank you God. This one hurt and there's nothing I can do about it. I figure I've done enough and best to step back if I really cared for her. I turn my back on many now and just turn toward an endless workweek and blissfully disappear in its all mind and bone tiring consumption. In a couple of weeks I cancel my t-mobile number no longer need that connection to the past. So many people will get away with scams and other scandalous things in the name of evil. Yet that was not my function I have done what i had to do to claim my name and honor in Rome. I have nothing more to prove to God or Man. I lived a good life I left my children, children of divorce now, well I left them provided with the knowledge of the world embedded in their veins. They speak foreign tongues, my blood spawn can dissect a stupid man within mere paces of his unsuspecting nature. I have done as was expected and taught them to survive. What I never thought would afflict me and pray that never strikes at them, my sweet merceful children, yea my deadly, but innocent children, is the unknown soul crushing, shattering pain of pains, a fucking broken heart man. I have been stabbed, shot and left for dead a dozens times, but mother fucker I never have felt such anguish like I feel now. I kid you not asshole this shit is deadly and dark man. I had to lock myself up in my apt as I trust not what or who I will strike out at.

Monday, April 27, 2009

How it goes.

Lol well I tried to be accommodating and this is all I can do. I like to write shit online its what I do. So what if you read it or don't at least I wrote it. Now its time to hit the road and see life the hardest way a man can, by himself. She was right, men that get divorced at my age and maturity or lack thereof get a chance to play it over, albeit in a faster and deadlier way, a chance nevertheless. I have found that all women posses an incalculable beauty and way of being that it drives you to ridiculous actions and accusations. I just did the same and well somethings you just can't take back and maybe something inside you that got hurt just a little too seriously refuse to take back lol. The point is I raise my glass to her and on every night until I wither. She was beautiful, magnificent and incredibly brilliant. It was I who failed the test. It was I the man that is so fucking stupid he doesn't know when to die. It was I that fucked it up. Inside burns me a passion and a love deeper and it burns like the core of our mother Earth. I will not rest until I can devour a woman whole from her soul to her mind. I will eat her and have her become one with me. I will learn from this horrid failure on my part and the next goddess will be worshipped righteously. Note to self next time dance with her first it could have told you alot before you gummned it up.